I am the darkness and the light

Embracing the dual aspects of our creation

Photo by Kay Jay edited on Canva

I see the light. I am the light. I am also the darkness. I choose the darkness that limits my vision. I choose the darkness to remember the light. And when I connect with the light, I realize that I am unlimited. I am expansive. I am eternal. I am all that is. Here and now, I choose the light. I see the light, as I am the light.

Darkness has many facets, and each one limits me. It makes me feel that I am powerless. And that I need to control to feel powerful. It imprisons me as I forget that I am free. Darkness has its purpose. To drown me to its core. As only then do I open my eyes. In my desperation, I crave the light. And when I connect with the light, I realize that I am unlimited. I am expansive. I am eternal. I am all that is. Here and now, I choose the light. I see the light, as I am the light.

I am the darkness and the light. And so are all the ‘I’s around me. We explore the darkness to transmute it to light. When we embrace the darkness, we control ourselves and each other. We limit and separate ourselves. And when we connect with the light, we realize that we are unlimited. We are expansive. We are eternal. We are all that is. Here and now, we choose the light. We see the light, as we are the light.

Diwali or Deepawali is the one festival when I have always enjoyed the ritual of lighting a candle or a diya. Earlier, when I believed that there was a God outside us, I even participated in offering prayers to this God. Now that I know that everything, everyone, this whole creation is God, the source of all that is, I do not believe in the religious rituals of offering prayers. Now that I know that everything is connected, I simply connect whenever I need support in dealing with the very much real experiences of my illusional physical reality by having a conversation with my higher self, with the energetic guides supporting my journey, with the universe or with the divine source.

I still enjoy this ritual of lighting a diya as it reminds me that how with our compassionate and powerful actions, we can diminish and even extinguish the darkness on earth as more and more diyas light up. May this day and every day be a reminder for us to remember our inner light, our inner power, our connectedness. When our unique energy expands, the whole creation expands. Our fears, the source of darkness in us, control us, limit us, and separate us. In this new era, we remember our freedom, our inner strength that expands and connects us. We are the ‘one’, and we are also the ‘all’. We reflect each other’s darkness and light to expand in a unique way. We learn and grow with each other. May we continue to choose the light through our harmonious and compassionate actions.

Thankful for the darkness as it showed me how to transmute it to light.

-Kay Jay (Originally written as two parts during Diwali 2025, an Indian festival)