Dealing with the Version of Me That Won’t Sleep

Chapter #3 — Writes Everyday

April 7th, 2026

It’s 00 am and I still wide awake

I don’t really know how much people in this world who has the same habit with me, especially person with this bad habit: stay wake-up on the midnight while they have business in the next morning. Such a bad idea, right?

I think, I’ve faced off this struggle since 2021? Wow that’s a long time ago, almost half decade. I always promise to myself and said “well, let’s go bed earlier” but at the end of the day my thought louder than everything that I heard those day.

If I told to my mom like “mom I cant sleep well” then she gives me question “why? are you stressed out of something?” and I always say no, but I’m not really sure.

My mind has very loud sound, some people called it anxiety, is it? idk is it true or not.

Tonight I have stay on my bed since 10pm, but my eyes still open and I decided to practice by myself then I see my phone it’s already 00.18 now.

I just need to deal with myself, that I can’t sleep earlier like other people do.

Dear myself, it’s midnight already. Let’s sleep well. You have your live tomorrow.

As bandaneira said, “biar esok kita lanjutkan, ceritamu yang terputus semalam”