What kind of a butt do I have? I have a “Yeah butt . . .” Giving the Universe Mixed Signals

YEAH BUTT

Some people have a small butt,

Some people have a big butt,

Some people have a round Kardashian bubble butt.

Me, I have a yeah butt.

I want to be in a relationship,

Yeah butt that means losing the freedom of being single.

I want intimacy,

Yeah butt that means being open and vulnerable.

I want a successful career,

Yeah butt that means more work and responsibility.

I want to be rich,

Yeah butt then I won’t know who my real friends are and if they only like me for my money.

I want to be a public figure and make an impact in this world,

Yeah butt that means everyone will watch and listen and judge everything I do or say.

I want to be married and have a daughter one day,

Yeah butt I’m afraid of being like my father and hurting my family.

I know these seem like silly thoughts but I didn’t realize how mixed my desires were until I put pen to paper one day.

I need to reconcile these thoughts because I have mixed feelings of wanting something and not wanting that very thing at the same time. This split energy (Yes/No — Yes I want it/No I’m not ready) is really draining me.

It’s like driving with the parking brakes on because part of me wants to move towards my desires and the other part is afraid.

If you’re like me, the Universe doesn’t know what to give you because you don’t clearly know yourself. You’re changing your mind about what you want from one moment to the next.

Imagine if a woman asked you to kiss her and then holds out her arm so you can’t. This mixed signal would be confusing and this mixed signal is exactly what we’re putting out into the Universe.

It’s like the famous image of comedians on stage who say, “Oh please stop with the applause” and put out one hand for stop while they have their other hand signaling to keep the applause coming, more please.

I now choose to have my desires all moving in one direction to let the Universe know I AM clear about my intentions.

I have spent the last few years being more consistent and aligned with my desires in asking the Universe.

And not changing what I order from “the menu of life”.

Here’s how I choose to think now

For a successful career — I will do what I love with people I love so it will not feel like work.

As far as more responsibility, I embrace and welcome it! I will use it like a new parent using their new responsibility to help focus their time and energy.

For being rich — I AM thoroughly enjoying my new found ABUNDANCE. I will trust my intuition to know when people are taking advantage of me. Plus I will also have some friends that are rich themselves as we give and share with each other. I will also think of great ways to use my money to help make a positive impact.

Becoming a public figure — I will not be afraid of making mistakes in the public eye because I will be authentic and let people know my shortcomings and what they can expect from me.

For example, Simon Cowell can be mean to people and get paid to do it because that’s what we expect from him. He gets paid to be honest and sometimes telling “the truth” can be perceived as being mean.

Howard Stern can do and say inappropriate things because that’s what we can expect from him.

It’s all about managing expectations.

I will let people know from the beginning that I’m human and NOT perfect and I make mistakes too just like everybody else. I ain’t no saint but I’m doing my best every day and this is what they can expect from me.

As a public figure, I will be authentically me and not some idealized version of myself that no one can live up to.

Intimacy — Although it can be scary to be open and vulnerable I know this is where I’ll have the most growth and strongest connection to another person. I consciously choose intimacy and know that the benefits, especially with the right partner, is worth it!

Being in a relationship — I will be with a person that I enjoy so much that I will not miss being single and she gives me the space and FREEDOM to be myself.

Getting married and having a daughter — I am not my father and have the power to choose a new life for myself and my family. I now thank my father for teaching me, even if what he taught me was what not to do. I am grateful for the lessons and know he was only doing his best.

This simple and silly exercise where I looked at what I wanted and asked myself if there were any contradictory emotions to that was very insightful for me.

Ask yourself, “Are there things you say you want but then you tell the Universe, on second thought, cancel that order???”

By holding the emotion of wanting your desire and the exact opposite of your desire at the same time.

It’s something to think about.

If you do, I would strongly suggest getting clear about what you want and moving your thoughts into alignment consistent with that desire.

Be patient with yourself and as you go through this process and take it one step at a time. One day at a time.