Watching the wheels

June 11th, 2026

I got up, took care of physiological needs, and went back to bed. It didn't matter what time it was and this was a shocking realization for me. I don't remember the last time I didn't care about the exact time and the plan to fill the hours I had. I had various lucid phantasmagorias appear to me when I went back to bed. I wasn't asleep. I was aware of myself being in bed and moving from one side to another. Yet, there were faces — some completely unknown, some long-forgotten conversations — simple but inquisitive, thoughts within the thoughts — with full awareness of this fact, actions — of me walking around the buildings and places my mind created from real and learned visual cues. After some time, I got up again and decided to spend some time watching the wheels go by. And not just the wheels by themselves, but trains and planes and cars, and even creations without wheels like ships and people walking by. And from all kinds of places, even very far away places. Even places where it is already (or still) the night. It is so easy now — just a click of the mouse, and another live webcam stream appears, and I can watch it for any reason. Nor do I want any. So I am sitting, or lying, or being comfortable somewhere and somehow in between those positions. The same I feel about being comfortable between sleep, dream lucidity, and consciousness. It feels the same to me now.

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