I Feel So Much, But I Don’t Know What I Feel

I think adulting is less about getting introduced to responsibilities and more about getting introduced to new feelings.

I experience around 800 feelings in a day.

Happy. Sad. Jealous. Mad. Excited. Confused. Hopeful. Disappointed.

Sometimes, all of them at once.

And honestly?

It’s weird.

I feel a lot, but I don’t always know how to express it or understand what exactly is happening inside me.

When someone asks, “What happened?”

I have no answer.

Nothing happened.

Everything happened.

Maybe I’m overthinking.

Maybe I’m tired.

Maybe I’m overwhelmed.

Or maybe I’m simply going through one of those phases where life feels a little too much.

Right now, I’m just stuck with it.

I don’t know what to do, so I’m not trying to force an answer. I’m just experiencing it and letting the days pass.

Maybe that’s all I need right now.

I don’t have to understand every feeling or have everything figured out immediately. Some things probably just need time.

Maybe eventually, this feeling will make sense.

Maybe it won’t.

And that’s okay.

Maybe adulting is feeling things you don’t have names for, going through phases you don’t understand, and somehow continuing anyway.

So for now, I’ll just be here a little confused, a little blank, and hopefully moving forward one day at a time.

Maybe I’ll get over it.

Hopefully.