Why am I so Scared to Do it?

Summer heat has gotten into my head! Btw, this is Episode 5!

Lately, I have been obsessed with this question — ‘Why am I so scared to do it?’

Why?

What is stopping me?

Is there something that is stopping me?

There are a lot of things that I can do right now. I have a hell lot of time on me. But what am I even doing?

Lying back on my chair, thinking!

In the 19 years of my life, I have never done this — the sit and think thing!

I have always been the Rebel. The one standing up in the crowd and speaking. The one raising her hand first. The one with immense fear and dumb confidence. I have been the one who walks up to a person and speaks up nonetheless, if she is feeling nonchalant.

To be and to not to be — a big question for humanity!

But, I have been the one!

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So, I know what I can and what I just simply can’t do.

Still, here I am.

Like an old granny, thinking and thinking and thinking and — okay, you got it!

I need freedom.

I always am screaming in my head — Be free, you dumb!

My fingertips still sparkle, so I guess I am not dumb, but I also am not free from my thoughts.

They are overshadowed due to some cases that went downhill.

And I am trying to climb the uphill!

What an ever-loving disaster!

When opposite scenarios clash, the friction turns into a sizzling spark that can lead to an agonising fire that either burns you down to ashes or burns your ‘no longer required’ perceptions.

I think it’s the latter one.

Oh, so what was I scared to do again?

Yeah! I remember now.

I don’t know about you, but before I wrote this piece, I was thinking, why am I scared to live to the fullest and not do what I want?

My chest is being ripped apart, and I can use a walk and some sewing.

Anyways, sitting for longer periods is also not good for your health.

Ikyk!

P.S. Just read a quote a few days ago, and here it is for you too. Just in case, yk —

Nobody is you. You are the Superior on

Episode either 4 or 5 (I swear I am going to check the number this time) of my series — ‘Before I turn an adult!’ I hope you enjoyed it.

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