Day 15: Bullet point my whole day

Day 15: Bullet point my whole day

It’s just a regular day with no special activities but I decided to post it today as I’m feeling like I have achieved something. So here’s the list of my activities:

• Woke up
• Attended Korean class
• Binge-watch The Good Bad Mother — didn’t expect I managed to finish those 6 episodes in one sitting! Anyway the drama is GOLD
• Had Korean food for lunch. Finally I found a place that sold tteokbokki with the taste and texture similar to my favorite Korean food stall — Kofu — which had gone few months ago :’) also I ordered chicken sunsal and hotteok (finally gotta eat hotteok for the first time!)
• Unboxing my recently-arrived package(s) : — )
• Arranged my itinerary for my upcoming vacation to Malang
• Reserved appointment at my go-to salon tomorrow
• Booked appointment with therapist next week

Typical right. So why did I mention that I achieved something today?

Actually it’s because yesterday I felt so miserable and full of sorrow, where I kept thinking “it’s just a week since my birthday but why should I go through this?”, but today I managed to get rid of those feelings right after I woke up. I remember that yesterday I cut social media usage for the first time this year; refused to use my main account in Insta & Twitter, and only used my second account in Twitter. I just didn’t want social media to amplify the negativity in me. I didn’t want to see how people are doing and just aimed to fix myself first. But anyway, I still had chat with some of my friends and it feels nice! That time I realized that all I need is to get connected, literally connected, not only seeing my friends through social media.

When I woke up with a lighter mind and easy feeling this morning, I was like… it’s a win for me? Yesterday I mourned all day long because of someone who gave me constant anxiety for the past few weeks but today I feel like it’s not that worth it to do so and I decide to let it go. And it’s a win.

And yes, I also put the answer on the last point: I finally booked an appointment with therapist after postponing it for way long time. By the breakdown I had almost every day this week, I — finally — realize that I need help. And it’s another win, for finally admitting it.

So that’s the highlight for today.

I hope I could find another win tomorrow; a win is a win, no matter how small it is, right?