LOOP HOLES WE NEED TO TALK ABOUT’

Our Body and Brain need exercise to be active and performative. What do I mean with Brain exercise? It isn’t constantly feeding videos of various stuff to be labelled as general knowledge. Mind that has capability to patiently read every word and not just skim over with the speed to win the undeclared race of finishing. Mind that has capability to respond to external stimuli rationally. Why do I write it like that? Because When it comes to a thing out of thoughts (expectations) occurs and you entire comfort zone image gets fucked. So, practically talking getting infected with a disease or normally getting sick or getting your leg fractured is not in anyone’s plan. But then there is entire shift in your routine and plans drowns int the tank of grief, which when i close my eyes it feels like my legs are stuck in giant deep black spiderweb attached to walls of trophy.

STUCK

Have u ever just sit and wondered, whether it’s the pain of suffering or the feeling of stuck, that you can’t beat?

Two painkillers a day, the last month does justice to the pain of wounds. As time flee, wounds heal. But the unconscious lesson my mind took like a kid who got his knees wounded for the first time while learning how to ride a bicycle. The lesson that learning new will come with more blood and his mom might wont let him ride until his knee get better so he cries like he is a failure with his dream of riding a bicycle.

You know the magic of being human, we unconsciously store a lot in brain and as accordingly pain of a that suffering pulls you in a loophole and you are stuck there cursing every person or possibility that could have been there instead. And when mind knows cursing is not bringing any benefit. It jumps to next easy step that is binge watching and binge eating. And when brain gets annoyed of it, you sit and overthink.

Welcome to the loophole.

I wish it was as easy as kid waiting for his mom curse of riding off over it. Trying to be out of the loophole, is to sit with your brain and realise it’s pattern. It takes time and a process to reach till a que that “what is brain so afraid of?” Even when it’s a small injury, mind flashes with kilos of resistance . It is because brain stores every memory of pain. Every memory creates a layer of fear that unconsciously spreads you to be out of loophole. So as we grow older, a human brain creates lots of “can’t to do” list. Now you know, why i talked about brain exercises.

The thing i said trying to be out of loophole, breaking off it isn’t that easy. At first that every person feel differently about pain with different intensity. And every other human create their own loops to be fought upon. Yeah, we all do have mindless scrolling in common. For you have seen people seeking external validation from a physical intimacy to hide their insecurities and shutting off from every human connection or abandoning in making a new connection. This pattern indeed are ruled by our unconscious fear of failure in head.

Adopting a dangerous dope culture is not for fun but for distraction. For creating noise. All this patterns we make separate us from ruling our own body and brain. I believe, we do it cause our brain don’t feel safe anywhere, so either us pretending for hype culture or you dance in loophole of grief. This affects even how we percieve little things, like

“am i enough for this job?”

“am i worthy enough?”

“am i a bad human?”

I write it this way cause I feel about pain this way. This is my form of self expression to break loops. It took me 3 weeks to do the only safest thing i know. So yeah, take all the time communicate with your body and wake up dancing on your favourite banger music. I could say it’s better than that walking swollen eyes cause you texted your ex last night.

Only one key Remember, you will forget it 100 times and learn 100 times…

Admit → Adapt →Restart

(Even i’m at 0 today, again)

Note: Pain here literally talks about suffering from a wound. Pain can be from death or heartbreak for you Or the extreme pain from suffering from an disease and so. It isn’t about what form of pain. All of the ways, it outputs with taking away your self confidence and hindering your self perception. And unconsciously will to live with dreams. Pain is a art that come to create something like it has a purpose well and surely there is lot idk about. But I do not wish to undermine your suffering. I say this cause in the past when someone says “I get it” but usually they have never really experienced it. So I might not get all these stuff wanna send lot of strength and hugs.

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