Why should I get away from you when I still love you?

Why should I get away from you when I still love you?

That question suddenly crossed my mind: Why should I get away from him when I still love him?

I sat with that thought for a while, hoping I’d find a reason to stay. But then I asked myself a different question: Do I really feel safe? Do I feel secure when I’m around him?

The answer came so quietly that it almost hurt, No.

I walked away, not because I stopped loving him. But because I still love him, I forced myself always to understand the things that hurt me. I keep convincing myself that everything will change, that one day I will be at peace.

I walked away not because I loved him any less, but loving him was no longer enough to keep me safe.

I left, because for once, I chose to be someone I wouldn’t abandon. Not because I don’t love him, but because I finally realized that love wasn’t enough to keep me intact.

Because at the end of the day, I have the right to always keep myself at peace. I don’t need to lose myself or stay in a place where I’m constantly questioning whether I am enough or worthy of being loved fully.