Why are you human?

Space within you

Why are you human? Because there is a space within you — a mind that can think, a will that can shape who you become. You are your own saviour. As a human being, you are gifted with a certain energy and power to live your life fully. You have breath, and that very breath makes you human. Once that breath is gone or altered, the “you” that existed no longer remains.

At the onset, it feels like no one can touch your life force — sometimes not even you. But as you move closer to self-awareness, you begin to understand how even the smallest things shape your life. You start to realize the happiness you carry within and the power you truly hold. Slowly, you stop clinging to trivial matters and begin looking inward for answers.

But what if it feels like someone has reached even that sacred inner space and shaken your very being?

This is how it felt to me. I felt broken as a human being, as if my chetna — my consciousness — had been disturbed by someone I once respected. Why? Simply because I was living freely, walking peacefully in a place that felt auspicious to me. That should be every human’s right — to travel, to breathe, to relax in their own way.

Yet something shifted. I felt constantly pushed to become someone I did not recognize, and in that confusion, I began to lose my footing.

For a long time, I blamed myself. I placed others above me and kept bowing to them out of habit formed since childhood. I kept trying to make sense of things physically when my mind was already overwhelmed. Today, my energy feels low. I feel sleepy often. My memory struggles, so I write things down to remind myself. Financially, life feels tight — just enough to manage rent and essentials.

And still, I am here — trying to understand what remains of me.

There is only one thing I see: jealousy. How could a girl in her 20s awaken so deeply and carry so much love for her Guru? How could she be blessed with so many gifts? And so the story turned — I was the one who fell, while they continue to live on, their legacy untouched, with people still bowing their heads before them.