Our lost History

Our Lost History

How to restore it before we transition

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In dedication to source and anyone genuinely wanting to align with it.

“You will do far greater things than me” – Yeshua

Freedom = The wish or experience of being free is stuck in a dome because of confining it to the material world as an atheist even if you’re ethical or taking out the spirituality out of religion even if you think you’re following God’s orders.

Introduction

My “Big Bang” of Consciousness

August 9, 2026 marks my “big bang” of consciousness. I am writing this the next day at 44 years old. Learning and healing through a spiritual awakening eventually led me here: a combination of sources from different fields, shadow and energy work despite my doubts but mainly abiding my curiosities.

This is also combining it with my experiences that at times I either repressed or just questioned. I realize now that some of these experiences are more than just “obstacles and challenges”.

They reduce it to as a form of dark psychology to get us to consent to a sick game within their system. This encourages selfishness and to get “psychological help” if it accumulates to trauma.

When observing issues around us, we are conditioned to donate to a nonprofit, volunteer or protest but only in the confines of what the system allows: this means we treat the symptoms but not necessarily get deep into actually changing the system that gives rise to these symptoms.

Even when we are challenged to do so, we are challenged through competing ideologies that are still part of that systematic societal foundation. And this can be true for ideologies in every category you can find.

For example, in terms of politics, when Karl Marx came into the picture, he was analyzing the complexities of capitalism. We don’t need to understand it and try to improve it as an economic tool. This is partly the reason people making revolution around this failed.

What we need- instead- are things and ideas that improve our wellbeing and that of the planet. Not how people can do better at ruling but how people can do better at being without being subject to becoming pawns.

The Epstein files forced us to confront a few uncomfortable truths:

• World Issues are more extreme than we realized
• Those issues have always been part of history but hidden
• These issues are tied to our ancestors and how they continue throughout generations but in different ways depending on the family, geography, etc.
• Conspiracy theories are true
• There are more sinister facts to be discovered
• These conspiracy theories are tied to some spiritual theories
• That means spiritual theories are true but we have to use our decernment

The extreme issues on our face were extreme enough but we went along with it because it was normalized and we agreed to our own form of slavery. The more subtle forms of slavery have the illusion of progress when a promotion or a change in career is possible and this unconsciously conditions us to be selfish.

When we are selfless, we can only account for our own family or community rather than the world at large. When we do think more worldly, we are accused of escapism, not being patriotic, colonialism, and even being grandiose. This can be true depending on the individual but the concept in this book attempts to get deeper into the bigger picture.

Besides, the colonial grandiose narcissists are the ones doing the bidding for the machivalian while simultaneously using psychopaths to do their own bidding.

This can take place as a means to either profit at the expense of someone or a small or large group or country or – as we have confirmed – pleasing their sadistic urges to sacrifice those who can grant them more power. Attempting to prevent this cycle is not necessarily the same.

I am going to naturally not be completely accurate or able to fit in all the missing pieces because I don’t have all the spiritual gifts necessary to do so and the ones I do have are not completely aligned to unveil what I wish I could regarding this topic.

This is why some of my knowing has been practical such as diving into sources but those that I have channeled at times is confirmed when I bump into the next sources.

Having access to the internet has far outreach access to libraries and books. But when I say this, I don’t mean it is more valuable especially considering the mainstream politics behind it. Nonetheless, it is possible to connect with people who can inspire this type of content even if you might clash with them at first over things you are not used to being open to.

Some of these people seem to have been initiated into secret societies in the traditional way and I haven’t. Despite the advantages of mastering spiritual gifts when done in this way, the disadvantage is how easily some get corrupted because power becomes more tempting than any other mission in mind.

Under a genuinely fair society, we would have more access to the truth without these extreme obstacles. Recreating reality, karmic laws and other theories used to justify our current reality, would not come at the expense of the rest of the collective especially without truly knowing that these theories are aligned with reality or just a tactic to let out sadistic urges.

Neuroscience: The biochemical psychological hijack

In our complete sovereignty, we would have several spiritual gifts. It wouldn’t be either sci-fi, myth or only one or two spiritual gifts destined for certain people. It would have been part of our biology, chemistry and other words used to also describe spiritual phenomenons.

This is already seen in other animal kingdoms, so it shouldn’t be that surprising. The problem with these natural abilities is that we wouldn’t be easily controlled so they had to find a way to erase our gifts, our memories and our connection to our lineage.

At first, this was done through our food and water throughout the agricultural revolution. The aim was to make food that prevented our natural connection to spiritual gifts, which was partly transmitted through what we ate. But this method was not potent enough: people were still craving spiritual awakening.

You found this in gnostics, Yeshua and other groups and individuals developing and maintaining spiritual gifts through other methods even if some were strict on their diet and still considered how food played a role in our connection to divinity or the spiritual realm. Even some logical people such as philosophers were curious and open to spirituality.

The next set of tools were psychological. Aristotle was, according to historical records, the first to develop the subject of psychology. This was supposed to be a more practical approach to spirituality. He had good intentions, but authorities at times used it as a means to attempt to control the population.

It is no wonder that someone eventually coined the word dark psychology. Dark psychology was spilled in every industry and ideology, which were all mainly created to control the population further with the pretense of helping others.

An example is distorting or eliminating sacred texts among other types of information. This is why the library and school of Alexandria was burned and why prominent people that attended and owned the school were prosecuted.

This simply became a biographical and historical information that was slightly distorted so that we believe it is the past and not aligned with the present moment.

If that was true, why do scientists and others still go missing? Why is there a cycle of dictatorship and “peace” in between despite peace in this context means subtle forms of consenting toward control.

The advancement of technology is another example. In one aspect, this way of technology was not necessary when you consider spiritual gifts. Anything else created to accommodate communication and travel would have been much simpler. We would have never allowed it to get in the way of real intimacy. It would have strictly been a tool rather than another obsession.

We also would have never needed currency, which is said to be an economic tool but in reality is a great way to make people suffer, be limited and be divided.

This is the underlying reason we failed at real intimacy even while technology was advancing because ideas shaping beliefs both psychologically and religious, relationships, institutions, and currency did that for us.

This is why most people are repelled by transhumanism and cryptocurrencies while others feel empowered and “up to date” with the latest trend. The problem they don’t want to admit is that they have to trick themselves into believing it is empowering while fighting off all its obvious disadvantages.

Because this brain trick was done with other things that came before it, it is easily done with what comes after. But if the regular people do not become aware and take appropriate action, the next world leaders will be the people behind cryptocurrencies, artificial intelligence, pornography, transhumanism and other dominant harmful industries.

It is no wonder that the word neuroscience had to eventually be coined as technology advanced. Without its controversy, you would associate it with explaining how consciousness is played out from physics to biology and chemistry.

When seen this way, it does play the perfect counterpart part to explaining it in more metaphysical terms. The controversy is that it aligns more with Wi-Fi, the internet, artificial intelligence and data centers, which is a military form of surveillance.

It’s not just about privacy and manipulating information; it also cuts us off from our natural ability to connect to the cosmos. In more metaphysical terms, it further cuts us off from our ability to obtain information that has not been manipulated – and other spiritual gifts.

This becomes more powerful when people have decades of being neglected of organic information and how to develop the skills necessary to become self-sufficient.

This is combined with the social and cultural conditioning from other tools already mentioned that programmed us to be more robotic than human. I know: you never would have guessed that being superhuman was our natural birthright before the concept of transhumanism came into the picture.

For those curious about different ways to obtain spiritual gifts – depending on the reader – you would still have to dive into healthy psychological concepts to balance the two. Although I mentioned it can become dark psychology when done the wrong way, it has also become a necessary tool for healing our experiences forced on us in the material world.

Simultaneously, toxic spiritual leaders are everywhere so you would have to exercise discernment while navigating both terrains and know when to either stop or put a pin on it for reflection and processing in order to think for yourself and not be subject to more trauma.

The occult secret societies

Most people believe that theories surrounding secret societies are filled with conspiracy theories with the exception that many more are open to it because of current exposures. It’s no surprise that the ones open to it either have trauma or/and are aware of certain issues around them that are out of individuals’ control.

An example of conspiracy theories that seemed to be obviously true is that the Jewish pope at a certain time distorted sacred text to create the other two major religions as a divide and conquer strategy.

This was the beginning of distorting knowledge in general, which naturally affected media, academia, entertainment and science when they became more dominant industries.

This might be corrected in a way that re-educates the public but it never gets the makeover it needs from the top down. It’s not only considering what is mainstream versus reality but also how this continues and accelerates political agendas even when proven wrong. This is why ideologies and scapegoats take turns in being dominant or punished because power thrives on it.

The reason this does not get stopped or managed is precisely because of the groups behind these power dynamics. Some people say it’s the fault of individuals rather than a group hiding behind the curtain.

In one angle, it makes sense to make people take accountability over placing the blame on an unknown group. On another angle, it still doesn’t add up: if there is a healthier truth that improves culture, ideologies, the economy, etc., why not apply it?

Precisely because it doesn’t fall in the hands of people who are going to be limited in their roles. If they do, they are reprimanded that they are stepping out of line, that they have big egos, and every other projection that actually goes toward power groups ruling at the expense of the planet but being able to not take accountability when shining the light on them means you are falling for conspiracy theories.

What we need is journalism and activism surrounding this idea: being precise on people who do more harm than good without missing anyone who might potentially be pulling the strings behind others; eliminating harmful industries; and reforming needed ones world wide.

The point is not that some of us want to rule the world: The point is to consider globalization and how corrupt individuals hide in areas of the planet that don’t have international law so they can get away with their crimes.

Our ancestors

Social conditioning and programming would not have been as effective if it wasn’t for the decades of experience, starting with our ancestors. But because it was the beginning of attempting to control us and because our ancestors were more autonomous with the skills and spiritual gifts necessary for survival, the attempt for control was much more brutal.

This is why this form of brutality is now displayed through international relations and local institutions that they try to convince us is for our own safety and the strengthening of the economy.

This form of dark psychology is passed down to groups so that they can pin themselves against each other without authoritarian intervention.

The brutality of our ancestors is recorded differently. They may leave certain things in but distort other things while leaving other things out. This is done so that we accept the complications of industries and their history and feel and believe there is nothing we can do.

For example, part of historical records states we were bacteria until we eventually became fish and eventually apes and eventually early humans and then there is a mystery gap until we are in ancient Egypt, Greece and other Mediterranean countries.

The other countries are not regarded as important because it was not yet owned. Nonetheless, they map out connections between countries that are similar but had not yet invented the technology to travel and communicate.

Part of what is left out is that they didn’t need the technology to travel and communicate with each other because they already possessed the biochemical technology to do so, which can also be coined as spiritual gifts.

The “mystery gap” is what was done to them way before what we popularly know was done afterwards throughout colonization. This partly and mainly was the extraction of their spiritual gifts so that they could be vulnerable toward control and manipulation.

The problem at first was the residue it left, which is why spiritual awakening in ancient times was more powerful than today. This is why it was first done to their “own people” before they could expand to international empires.

They had to experiment with their immediate environment first. Whoever got in the way the most became the prominent scapegoat who ironically- as a form of dark psychology- inspired them to make a religion out of. This is what today we call Christianity.

The question is what happened before the gap: are the groups responsible from another planet who invaded this one? Did they want to experiment but couldn’t do so with their own kind (in terms alien race) so they had to do it with the beings of another planet which happened to be earth?

This, so far, seems like the best explanation because any other explanation would become too complicated of a story. This would explain cannibalism and other things found in the Epstein files that normal humans are not capable of.

This is why I put quotes on their “own people”. Their “own people” was simply who they shapeshifted to so they could gain their trust: Anglo-Saxon, white, etc. This demonic gift will continue decades later with our families, distorted sense of identity, industries, geography and their distorted history.

Our families

When reading the above chapters, it is no surprise that most families are dysfunctional. Some might just operate on autopilot based on historical relationships while others could be more closely monitored based on covenant contracts.

This is due to being able to observe time and “right any wrongs” that potentially took place in the future. This explains dejavú.

This also explains behavior and opinions about you that don’t make any sense to you especially by strangers: as if they “know you” more than you know yourself because you have not yet explored something hidden from you but also something they try to manage and control.

The problem is deeper than just CIA targeting if you are a U.S citizen. It is how it is tied to everything spiritual, energetic, magical and ancient. The reason authorities have another set of challenges is because the more they sacrifice good beings, the more it strengthens divine law despite simultaneously strengthening demonic ones.

This partly means that lost ancient wisdom has returned, granting the opportunity for some people to restore their divine power over the ones who oppress them.

This also restores justice that needs to be served from the beginning of this process. It explains why some start channeling certain deities throughout their spiritual awakening, which are actually many of the lives that have been sacrificed but were meant to advance our civilization in the way it was supposed to.

These are our true soul lineages and not the biological ones assigned to us by secret societies, governments and the elite. Most of our biological families have inherited different levels of narcissism and subtle forms of psychopathy and sadism.

When they absorb this without ever unlearning it, healing and relearning what restores divine inheritance, they automatically sell their souls to the devil. This is why people are not ashamed to abuse, neglect, sabotage and orchestrate abuse from others to their own family, friends, intimate partner, neighbors, coworkers, etc.

This has also taken place for decades, just in different ways as time goes by because of how society adapts different social instruments. For example, what was “burning or stomping of the witches and warlocks” became individual targeting.

Our search to become free

Since our culture is toxic, it is normal for it to spill over to activism. But we have to understand that this is no longer about politics and more about children and every other world issue demanding our attention.

This is why we need a new phase in journalism and activism if we want things to get better and break the cycle of this demonic hold on our planet earth.

Victim blaming

Most people judge and shame the victim unless they know about psychology. This is because society conditions us to do so. This is why the justice system could find someone not guilty of certain crimes: because the response is to usually blame the victim.

If you become aware enough to no longer fall for those tricks, they’ll blame you for using your intellectual capacity to escape accountability and growth.

Ironically, being aware and defending yourself, especially when it relates to something larger than you and how the worst issues are interconnected with your own, is part of growth. What is missing is for projection to stop and for the ones who truly need to take accountability to do so.

Another bad habit that triggers trauma is identifying people by it. The truth is that once you become aware and heal, you no longer make the same mistakes. Simultaneously, they will assume victims are trying to make it their personality when in reality, they are just processing it as part of healing. This is why it is best to not share them.

A background summary of how we got here

After the conventional 3 pillars of religion extracted spiritual knowledge and gifts from divine orders, it distorted it for evil purposes. Some of this was learned from Hypatia, others from gnostics and other groups. The mission was to extract divine energy into itself to obtain and maintain power.

Others are meant to copy it so that they can obtain whatever they wish through their victims and this in turn would continue accelerating the Vatican’s power even if this was done energetically (through relationships) rather than directly (through politics and other industries).

An example was the levels of abuse continuing to be orchestrated – after wiping out important ancient figures – toward families and communities. If some or most continued conducting this to next generations, it would accelerate the mission.

Think about it: If society was genuinely about improving culture, it would do so by intervening in a healthy manner through healthy institutions even if it was done through the economy, which would also improve that and any other social instrument they have thought of.

It wasn’t about making improvements; it was either about making things worse or maintaining whatever is bad enough but covering it to get away with it and allowing only a few to benefit in order to maintain power by allowing some to have it under terms and conditions.

Besides, one individual and small group cannot rule the world alone: they need more small groups to be able to do it. This type of power would actually not be so bad if it was genuinely about healthy leadership, which cares about the wellbeing of the planet rather than ruling at their expense. That is why not intervening in a healthy manner when it is called for has always been a great way to neglect the population without much effort.

Internationally this meant ruling other lands through force and not taking responsibility for the land and its people. And this accounts for why the exception to intervention is always destructive even if it manipulates the public into thinking it is doing it for the sake of progress.

By conquering it silently, it gives the impression that it doesn’t have to take responsibility while at the same time profiting from it. This means it follows and breaks international law according to how it benefits. This same tactic is the same in patriarchy (gender roles) and capitalism (human and environmental rights).

How most people turn demonic

People turn this way through decades of the same dark psychology reinforced in society. That is why covenant contracts don’t have to be about being initiated through people with robes and getting paid to do it. It also doesn’t mean being subject to more extreme issues that we see in the news, which is actually done so that we normalize the ones we have.

By normalizing it, the unawareness spreads and we allow things to get worse while being conditioned to blame ourselves for it. We are also conditioned to blame ourselves for not magically knowing things that have been neglected. If you think about it, doing so is deeper than the mental and emotional abuse of inflicting shame for something done to us.

It also ironically hints that we are magical beings and that we should be ashamed for not tapping into our magical powers despite doing so also gets punished til this day but in a different way than ancient times.

Intuition

They say your body knows before your brain does. They say it is intuition. But in reality, it is the residue left behind that reminds you you are bigger than what you think you are. At times we mistake intuition with fear and desire and that is how our ego tricks us.

This is why they designed it that way: to not be in our power and instead rely on animal instincts. They say we are part of the animal kingdom but that’s not true. But thinking this conditions us to normalize crimes against humanity and the planet caused by those who rule over us.

Simultaneously, religion shames us for the pettiest things even if our reaction is a result of our social and natural environment through relationships, circumstances, our diet, etc.

Another perception to karma

What if instead of “returning it to sender”, we filter it to cosmic law? Returning it to sender seems fair: people learn by no longer traumatizing, sabotaging, etc. even if they learn the hard way. But in reality, we make everything stuck in a loop of perpetual suffering by doing so. Divinity, on the other hand, promotes the same level of learning but in a more holistic way. That’s why holly is in holistic.

Another perception to globalization

What if getting our questions answered through a new phase of journalism and activism redefines globalization? Instead of it having an apocalyptic and authoritarian feel, we get healthier connections, industries, ideas and better ways to experience locations. No more punishment and suffering; just joy and learning.