different ≠ wrong (ft. sangwon)

I’ve been feeling pretty unwell lately, and sangwon heals something in me even without him trying. and now I get why leo feels so comfortable around him this whole time, cuz he is the purest soul ever and a safest place for those who need a hug.

It’s crazy that every picture he took, every word he wrote, every expression he made, i could feel it by my heart. why? that simply because he also did all of it from his heart too. especially when he writes about what he feels. he is just too pure, that makes me want to be as pure as he is too in a world full of egos.

rather than judging you for what decisions you make in life, I think he would choose to be with you to listen to all of your worries and then just trust and respect all of your plans about your life in the future. everyone has the right to choose how they are gonna live right? even if it doesn’t seem like a good decision in others perspectives.

I don’t know why God made him as a reminder to me that gives me hope that is telling me that it is okay to be “you”, even if the world ends up hating you, and it is okay to be someone who has “a deep heart” even if the world starts misunderstanding you as someone who is easily being fooled.

Human emotions are too complex to be judged only by what we see from outside, I think. and rather than judging for what decisions people made on their own life and give advice that never been asked, why shouldn’t we just start to just listen to what they feel and respect/trust everyone’s plans in life?

I know that it’s just my assumption that sangwon is “that type” of person, but it doesn’t matter cuz at least his existence brings me peace. at least his existence pushes me gently to be able to validate my emotions and feeling okay to feel what I feel without wondering “what is wrong with me?” all the time, cuz nothing is actually wrong with you.

it’s just humans that are too complex and every human feels and sees things in life differently. including you, you are not wrong to choose how you are gonna live. everything you feel is valid and reasonable, and it’s not wrong at all just because it’s different from others’.

xoxo, haze