let’s get along in this scenario. i let them be.

sometimes, people rewrite you into the villain so they don’t have to sit with the guilt of how they treated you.

who is she now? no darling, you can’t even recognize this side of her. but, one thing. she knows her worth in every room.

well well well. i really don look who’s trying to frame on me after everything, HAHA. what a perfect couple, oh wait, exes? no no, i don’t think so. cuz tbh, it’s much better for calling both of u as the LOSER x MANIPULATIVE combo in relationship.

don’t worry, sweethearts. i won’t do any kind of revenge from my own hands. but, there will be signs. and it’s gonna come from your own hands. i won’t talk badly about you even ruined your image (YA LAGIAN BRANDING KALIAN BERDUA SUDAH CUKUP LAMA TERCEMAR TANPA HARUS SAYA BERTINDAK, SIH.) cuz y’all a’int worth my space. y’all just being garbages in my chapter of life now, the losers that twisting story and act like a victim. y’all can’t even hate me by alone, gathering people to hate on me LOL.

i know it, since day 1, both of u or peeps gonna plan a ‘little game’ on me. guess what? i decided to play along. there’s no way genius gonna scream that they’re genius, right? i’m being the dumb girl, the fool one that easily to get framed cuz this girl can’t do anything else besides praying to her God. and you forget one damn important details of me. every prayers of her that come to God with tears, God really sees it and will make the execution of the plan with His power and will.

i understand the game and i don’t panic at all. i act, isn’t it such a good acting of mine?! i see the lies. i see the moves. i see the pattern. and i’m ending it with silence. not because i was afraid, but it’s the power that i hold on both of your dumbass brain. i’ve been on this kind of game since i was a kid, thanks to my family’s conflict.

isn’t it hilarious that, you thought you could ruin me? but, little did you know… every setback, every betrayal, every ‘ending’ you tried to write for me, only became the plot twist that shaped my character. thank you for this interesting story line but it’s kinda boring without any surprises, right? sudah aku persiapkan semua detailnya kok, yang bahkan turut terselip dalam lembaran doa-doaku. tidak usah risau, bukan kelasku dalam mendoakan orang yang sudah kusingkirkan dalam konteks buruk. OH Tuhan! Kau Maha Tahu akan tiap bulir tangisanku dalam doa! Bahkan, Engkau tahu, aku tidak ingin membatasi kuasa-Mu dalam hal ini. Daku hanya ingin kuasa-Mu saja yang sepenuhnya berkerja atas buah yang akan mereka tuai setelah ditabur itu!

Kalian salah dalam menilaiku. aku, sang jalang bodoh ini, justru pemenangnya. setiap rumor dan konspirasi yang kalian ciptakan itu, selalu hanya bertahan di tengah lingkaran katak di bawah tempurung hijau itu. ironis sekali melihat citra diri kalian dengan yang aslinya, ketika disini, aku memutuskan untuk diam dan memilih “kebaikkan” dibanding mengeluarkan sisi gelap yang selama ini berusaha kutahan agar tidak menimbulkan kegaduhan.

sayangnya, terhitung dari hari ini, sisi tersebut terus menerus memberontak. sisi merah dan gelap yang mengisyaratkan “kali ini, akan aku lawan dengan segala yang aku punya dalam diriku.” “LEPASKAN AKU!” “JANGAN KONYOL! BIARKAN AKU BERTINDAK KALI INI.” “SEKALI SAJA, AKU HARUS BERAKSI! AKU HARUS BERTINDAK!” dan, aku memutuskan untuk melepaskannya. bukti bahwa, inilah anak perempuan yang dibesarkan kedua orangtuaku. anak perempuan yang sadar dan tahu percis tiap sisi yang terkandung dalam dirinya.

i let you to create a false narrative of me. go ahead. i let you say what you want. because, my life will flourish while your lies will rot yours. it’s not an instant process, i know. slowly yet cutthroat. like, people will always have to say something even when i didn’t do anything, people will always spread rumors that i confuse (wait, did i do that?) and people will always make me the wrong one. so, this is how i’m gonna play it, teehee! i let them! i let them believe what they want to believe, i let them to spread the nonsense, cuz the fact, I DIDN’T DO WHAT THEY WERE SPREADING AND IT’S THEIR PROBLEM NOT MINE! in the end, they would face their own lies, and the poison they put in my cup? they’re the one who would drink it.

you can turn everyone against me, make up lies about the true story, give me dirty looks whenever i pass by, but i’ll know.

apabila dipikir-pikir, kalaupun kalian berani mengumbar saya sebagai individu toxic, apa tidak baik sekaligus menceritakan kepada mereka, apa yang kalian lakukan kepada diri saya terlebih dahulu? apabila memang kalian dewasa, BERTUMBUHLAH SELAYAKNYA KONDISI YANG KALIAN CAP DIRI KALIAN ITU. ADMIT YOU DID IT AND YET YOU STILL GASLIGHT ME UP. the way you digging through my past to use it against me, that says more about you than it ever will about me. mari kita lihat, siapa yang akan terjebak dalam permainan ini.

people have thrown dirt ony my name, others have given flowers and it’s all a garden to me. some situations hace thrown stones my way, others have laid bricks. it’s all a foundation to me. i’m gonna get my growth over this. no revenge because everything and everyone that tried to break me ended up building me.

Forgive them God, for i will not. they played the victim card so well i almost forgot i was the one who got betrayed in the first place.

best of luck, for all of you, for framing me in this dangerous game. watch out from now on. as i said, don’t project your evil insecure unhealed self onto my well intended genuine beautiful soul. thank you for being a sign of how your parents dissapointment.