Have you ever thought like this

Have you ever felt like you’ve lost your purpose in life, even though you understand religion? It feels like you don’t know what you’re supposed to do in this world, what your purpose was, or what you were born for. It feels like you don’t do everything with ambition or desire, as if it’s just something you normally do, and you just go with the flow. Have you ever wondered, like, how did I get born into this world when I don’t have any advantages, am always a burden on my family, and am disliked by my friends and those around me? And have you ever felt completely devoid of emotion about certain things? Sometimes, when you should be sad and crying, you feel emptiness and emptiness, and then you feel nothing. Then, when you smile or laugh at happy moments, you feel like those emotions are fleeting, not genuine happiness. Is this a mental illness? Is this actually a common occurrence? Could this be due to something that happened in the past? Is it possible that there is a trigger for this?

So, have you ever felt like you needed to ask many questions in this world, but you didn’t say it or ask it, just thinking about it in your head? And on one hand, you answer these questions in your head, as if you already know the answer. On the other hand, you remain confused and unsure about the answer, or perhaps you’re certain of the answer, but you don’t live it well.

Have you ever felt a lack of ambition in your life? It’s as if you’re just going to “let it flow.” Is that a good thing? Or is it a bad thing? On the other hand, when you apply for a scholarship or something similar, you’re always asked about your goals, vision for the next five years, desires, goals you want to achieve, ambitions in life, and so on. At the time, you have the answer, but is that what you want? Is that really what you want? Is that the path you’ve chosen?

Have you ever felt unstable in life? Sometimes one day you want to be a doctor, another day you want to be a professor, another day you want to work in an office, another day you want to be famous, maybe even a musician. But you already understand the basics and how each of these things works, but on the other hand, because there are so many things, you don’t know which is your true desire/ambition. Then you don’t take it seriously. And finally, you feel lazy about it.

Have you ever felt like you’re “living reluctantly, dying reluctantly,” but on the other hand, you feel the opposite at other times. Have you ever felt like you have a split personality, one that’s only active at certain times? Can laziness really make someone feel like they have a split personality? Is laziness really what it is? Sometimes I think I can do a lot, but on the other hand, I feel like I can’t do much. On the other hand, I’ve also been taught that nothing is impossible. As long as I’m willing to try, anything can be done. But I’m lazy, I’m lazy, but I’m not lazy in certain situations. Is this because of a “comfort zone?” What is a “comfort zone”? Is it a place where I feel comfortable? Could it be a place where I rest? Do I need to get out of my “comfort zone”? What does a “comfort zone” actually look like? I’m confused, wondering, thinking about it, on the other hand, I always feel sleepy when I think about it, is it because my brain capacity is weak?? Maybe in computer terms it’s like CPU Overheating, right?

I’m confused Without a goal Without ambition And I keep thinking Without an answer