I Stopped Dreaming Too Much

When we were child, we used to dream, dream of everything. We imagined very beautiful life. In my childhood, it all went by playing with dolls, alone and also, I dreamed too much. I couldn’t accept reality, because from childhood it was very hard, so I escaped reality and lived in my imagination. Because it felt kinder than reality.

With time I grew up, now in my heart a storm was flowing because I wanted to make that imagination a reality of my life. I took life so seriously, too much study, too hardworking. So, in this hardworking, no time to health and no time for my friend.

But how we imagine that way, it never goes. Life always goes to the opposite of our dreams, when through time I got depressed, so I realized, so life is not what we imagine. Life is a reality, that must be experienced, we cannot escape reality, now I accept my reality.

Because I think my reality is more beautiful then my imagination.

I am such a person, who really deeply believe in existasnalism, that everything has its deep meaning. But I also believe a little in absurdism, because in some moments, we need to let go and say it is not that meaningful. Absurd mindsets help us to be kind, humble and forgive people.

My own study taught me that not only study matter other thing also matter.

Every time happiness doesn’t matter, the real meaning comes when you suffer.

Suffering and pain are always important.

Through time, I realized that I don’t need to dream too much, I only need to go through my life.

I still work hard, but not that much.

Before I used to call me a dreamer, I still dream, but not that much.

I always say that I have lost that girl in me, that girl was the dreamer, that serious one.

But I don’t want that serious person to come back, I am happy to what I am now.

I am happy in my current situation, I know there are still so many pain and problem, but everything cannot be so sad. Sometimes we ourselves need to make ourselves happy.

It is not important that you should be so famous, so successful in your life. Everyone is here for a great reason, we should never compare ourselves with others that why they are successful and we are not, everyone cannot be same, maybe you are better than them.

Don’t live the life the way, you except it but live it, the way it is.

Reality is hard, but you need to go through that.

But the harsh truth is, I didn’t stop dreaming, I was just changed.

From dreaming to change the world to hold my own self.

From extrovert to introvert.

From studying for my dreams to only studying to calm my restless mind.

From a productive to a lazy person.

From crying to not hiding my pain, to smiling to hiding my pain.

From finding my meaning in everything to finding beauty in everything.

From topper to average student

Everything changed in me, and it was something very deep that I was changed. We don’t need to worry about anything, because Allah is always greatest, whatever is already written for us that will be anyway. Always try your best. It is not important that every time we win, sometimes it is better to lose and better give up.

Sometimes you accept reality, and live it. You need to accept every situation, understand that it is okey, it happens, it is life.

Life is really like a book, some pages are blank, where you need to write your story and some pages are already written, you only need to live them. Some chapters break you, and some chapters make you happy. Every chapter in your book has a meaning. Some chapters are already there to teach you and some only stay.

Till you are breathing and alive, so smile, we still can-do unique things and maybe everything is okey, we are just overthinking.