Where Did the Butterflies Go?

Searching for the Spark – Again

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On the 16th of April 2025, my hubby and I celebrated our 3rd wedding anniversary. It was surreal.

Beyond the excitement that comes with such occasions, I took some time to reflect.

I recalled those days when hubby (then fiancé) and I courted; the mushy feelings and the butterflies that won’t let my belly rest.

Even though we had a long-distance relationship, yet, we tried our best to keep the fire of our love burning. We talked on the phone every day and most times, at length. We visited each other and traveled together.

Seeing each other alone caused some magnetic reaction. It took God’s grace to see us through a no-sex relationship until we finally tied the knot.

I believe most couples felt this way at the onset of their relationships.

But somewhere along the way, those butterflies start to fade. The newness wears off, and life settles into something quieter, more routine. And if you’re like me, you might find yourself asking, “Where did the butterflies go?”

It’s easy to worry when love doesn’t feel as intense as it once did. We start wondering if the passion is gone or if we’ve lost something essential in our relationship.

We might even begin to wonder if it’s a sign that love is fading or it was never there.

Before our 3rd anniversary, I never had to ask myself if I truly love my husband. The 1st and 2nd anniversary still got me with the butterflies. But you see this 3rd, I searched for them.

Sincerely, I love my husband. I mean, how could I have accepted to marry him if I felt any other thing but love?

Somehow, I felt bad for searching for the butterflies in just 3 years of my marriage. That seems too early.

It’s understandable if couples feel this way on their 10th or 15th anniversary but 3rd, how?

After some moment of reflection, here’s what I discovered: the butterflies didn’t leave. They simply transformed.

If you have ever been in love, you will agree with me that at first, love is exhilarating, full of excitement and possibility.

You spend endless hours getting to know each other, and every moment feels like an adventure.

But as time passes, life happens – careers, kids (in our case, 1), and the everyday routines of building a life together. And love, if it’s going to last, has to grow deeper than those initial butterflies.

That’s because Love, in its truest form, doesn’t stay in that early stage forever. It matures. It becomes something stronger, something more rooted.

It evolves from passion to partnership, from infatuation to a deep, steady connection.

That time when the butterflies have to be replaced by something more enduring – trust, respect, understanding.

When you stop chasing after excitement, and instead, you start finding joy in the quiet moments.

It’s in the shared laughter over a silly inside joke. It’s in the way you both know what the other person needs without having to say a word.

It’s in the steadiness of knowing that, even after all these years, you choose each other every single day.

So where did the butterflies go?

Nowhere. They didn’t disappear, rather, they transformed into the steady hand that reaches for yours when you’re going through tough times.

They became the way you know exactly how to comfort each other when words fall short. They became a deep-rooted connection that doesn’t need constant excitement to feel alive.

Think of it as a metamorphosis.

In the beginning, love feels like a spark. Over time, that spark grows into a flame, one that doesn’t need to burn brightly all the time, but provides warmth and light, no matter what life brings.

I used to think that the quiet moments in my marriage meant something was wrong. But now, I see that those moments are the ones that matter the most.

They are the moments where you truly get to know each other, where the excitement is replaced with something far more meaningful – companionship, security, and mutual respect.

Here's the thing: Marriage isn’t about keeping the butterflies alive forever. It’s about building a love that can stand the test of time, even when the initial excitement fades.

It’s about creating something deep, meaningful, and lasting – something that doesn’t need fireworks to prove its worth.

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