And I Still Talk To You

When I’m Screaming at the Sky…

I did it perfectly, and I thought I did it perfectly. However, I sometimes felt that my thesis wasn’t complete.

“Please resolve all of these and find a compromise. So now, what do you want?”.

A crucial question that has a huge impact on the relationship. And I’m very grateful to have an opportunity to answer, and we did it perfectly.

There are still remnants of emotion in my heart after the peak of that problem occurred, but I can handle it. So, that’s why people say that I find it very easy to move on from those problems. I always keep my feelings in beautiful writing.

But let’s go back to the past, when I always gave my emotions to the people around me. I am not shouting to the sky, I am shouting to them. My thought at the time was that the problem would be solved if they saw that I was disappointed in them; after that, I would leave them. What an infuriating attitude, isn’t it?.

Until I find my soul in writing, recounting experiences, and expressing my deepest feelings through beautiful words. At that time, I had a debate with my partner. We have different ideas, different ways, different solutions, and it was extremely draining for both of us. I couldn’t say anything when he forced me to speak.

He didn’t know that I was shouting to the sky.

I felt very angry with him because he kept making the situation worse. He wouldn’t give me any breathing space at that time. He simply believed that the problem could be resolved quickly, but he didn’t consider other people’s feelings at that time. Until finally, I found a space to express my feelings to him, but I shouted to the sky.

I explained that I was asking him to be patient, because not everyone likes the way you solve problems. I’m still talking to him (while I’m screaming at the sky). Behind that, I knew he wasn’t telling me everything he was doing behind me, until I finally discovered something that hurt my feelings. He was interacting with someone, but I didn’t know about it. Even though I actually knew that person, I was their intermediary in business matters.

He hugged me while saying, “Nadya, I’m sorry…”. After that, the noise in my heart slowly faded away, and those intense emotions gradually subsided after he apologised. We seek a compromise.

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And then I realised that, to have a mature relationship, it would be better if we held back our feelings in heated situations. This doesn’t mean that we suppress our feelings forever, but rather that we suppress feelings that can have a negative impact. It would be better if you replaced your negative emotions with something you enjoy. For me, it’s a writing. This will be a good option for sharing our emotions.

Let your heart scream out to the sky when you are at the peak of the problems. Tomorrow, give your heart some space. Let them do what they need to do.