You are allowed to change

Are you living the life you dreamed of? Are you who you wanted to be?

I mean, i can speak from a place of experience when i say we spend half of our lives preparing for something that never came, something they say “the future holds” my thing is probably being held still, whatever it is. I’ve always had clarity about what i wanted to do with my life, about what i wanted in life and suddenly i saw myself trapped into a vicious cycle of a never ending “start over” and i feel like i’m stuck between who i am and who i wanted to be.

How many times have you felt that way? how many times have you thought the problem was you? that you weren’t trying enough? Or it just wasn’t meant to be and you felt like giving up? I know, a lot, so have i. But let me tell you this, we are not the problem, life does not go as we plan because life has its own plan for each of us (i’m not saying it’s the best plan though), unfortunately we have to learn how to deal with the unexpected things around the corner and know that there might be something good waiting for us or maybe nothing, just a corner, but someone has to talk about it, right?

Everyone wants to talk about achievements and sell advice about how to get to the iron throne and no one wants to talk about defeat, about the wait, about the “not getting what you worked for”, we ignore that part because we were told that success is the only thing that matters, that you can’t give up, you have to… and blah, blah, blah and because of that we have so many people dealing with anxiety problems and depression and frustration, no one wants to talk about the bad parts of aiming for something higher and never reaching it, and the ones that don’t fit in the world of successful people won’t be heard.

Well, you’re not alone, i’m here to listen to you, to tell you it’s ok and if it’s not, it will be!

Don’t compare yourself to others, everyone has a story, even i had a lot of turn arounds in my life that led me to this point where i am now, i used to blame it on God but sometimes things won’t happen and there’s no logical explanation to that, it is what it is. However, there’s one thing we can always do, the only constant in life is change and if there’s a thing we know how to do is to change, you can always learn something new, discover a new passion and even change your plans and dreams, we are allowed to change as many times as we want to, don’t be attached to an idea of something you want or used to want, be attached to the will in your heart to do whatever it is you wanna do. You are capable of anything, even if it doesn’t feel like it.

In the mean time go have fun, stop overthinking, tell that voice in your head to shut the f*ck up, go out and breathe some fresh air, go look at the moon or something, read your favorite book, watch a B&W movie, live a little, you won’t regret it, i promise!