Feeling off lately!!

Feeling off lately!!

Lately, I haven’t been feeling like myself.

There’s no one big reason I can point to just a constant heaviness, a loop of overthinking, and days that feel slower than usual. My mind has been louder than my actions, and honestly, it gets exhausting trying to keep up with it. I’ve been taking a few mental health sessions, trying to understand what’s really going on inside me. Some days it helps, some days it doesn’t. But I guess that’s part of the process learning that healing isn’t linear.

Overthinking has been my biggest struggle. Small things turn into big thoughts, and big thoughts turn into unnecessary worries. I catch myself replaying conversations, imagining outcomes that haven’t even happened, and questioning things that don’t need questioning. It’s tiring, but I’m becoming more aware of it.

Even on days when I feel off, I’m trying to hold onto small, grounding habits.

I’ve started playing badminton again not as a big fitness goal, but just to move, to feel present, to get out of my head for a while. That one hour on the court feels lighter than the rest of my day. It reminds me that my body can still feel good even when my mind feels heavy.

I’m also trying not to pressure myself to “fix everything” at once. Some days, just getting through the day calmly feels like enough. And maybe it is.

I think we often expect ourselves to always be productive, always clear, always in control but the truth is, there are phases where we’re just… figuring things out. Quietly.

Right now, I’m in that phase. Not fully okay, but not giving up either. Just showing up in small ways, hoping that with time, things will start to feel lighter again.

Lately, one thing that has genuinely helped me feel calmer is reciting the Hanuman Chalisa. It brings a sense of peace and grounding that I was missing. It doesn’t fix everything, but it helps quiet my mind, even if just for a while and right now, that feels like enough.