i want to call you but

Hi, it is me again. If you don’t remember me thats not a big deal… just so you know, you’ve sent me ‘thing i don’t want to know’ last Friday, but when i replied your text i didn’t get a response. Did you know that i’ve been waiting for you to show up as ‘read’ ?

Next day, i pursuid my self to call your W* but you didn’t pick up the phone neither text me back or do anything with the call.

I understand we didn’t almost gotten along these past few weeks due to our buzy schedule. But it didn’t meant i forgot about our last pillow talk we had in 11 May.

So, i’ve come to the conclution that maybe only me whos fallen in this season, and you didn’t care at all. At least, in 14 th months we’ve spent together i’ve all ready gave you my world, to served you, to satisfied you, lent you money for some food, and i’ve never asked for anything in your return.

Genuily, i felt tired in this relationship, i couldn’t even describe what actually we did, is it friends with benefit, only friends, or only two people get to know. I don’t know what we call this except the feelings of loneliness and emptyness you leaf behind.

One of the other thing i can remember from you was ‘the everytime i try to reach you ’i used to go all the way to your f p**. You never picked me up from work or from the place i used to lived in.

I understand your situation actually, you don’t have bike but why did i find you few times hanging out riding it ? Nevermind actually. Back to the topics: I understand you. You are alone in this country, no family, no job, and no money ? I think you often sell drugs ? I also caught you asking money from your Dad ?

I think i talk to much. Need to shut up.

Yes i came to annoying you like you said. But like i said let’s back to the topic now!

I just want to say goodbye or anything in farewell ways. It is not because i don’t want things work out between us but i couldn’t find the part of me since you ignored me a lot. I also felt more empty for you now. Sometimes i tried to found you in the wind or rain, but once in the grave.

I totally lost…control. Maybe we are better off being strangers again. Like most of my friends said, we had no chemistry, we had no plan, and we had no future. So, I don’t want you go to my tommorow.

Thank God, i’ve already forgotten your voice and your face.

Good bye jerk.

Best regards from your f r…..ship.