── whispers

── a letter for my love qonita rasendriya naafi’.

Dear

My sweetest Nita.

first of all i want to express my deepest gratitude to you and to god, thank tou for being here and bringing new colors into my life, honestly i dont have many friends to talk to or express how i feel, so thank you for always listening me since the day one, thank you for your presence, thank you for your time, and help me regain my faith.

Before you i often feel empty, confuse, and lost, searching for the true meaning of love. sometimes when i lost my faith and confidence it pushes me away from society, and that hurts. but you showed me that i have the capacity to give love without diminishing the love i have for myself. you made me realize that im not less and more.

Dear

Nita,

My prettiest Nita.

i dont know why god brought us together, nut i believe that everything has a cause and effect, there are many things i dont fully understand, or perhaps i do, but even so, im not sure what god purpose is, but i believe its a good thing for you and me, or maybe i should ask him? why did god send me nita at the moment when i was losing my faith to form a connection with someone else? slowly i began to understand, piecing together the fragments, solving the stack of question that slightly disrupted my sleep, the answer turned out to be very simple, not as complex as i had imagined, i fahru, must be someone who is brave, in the sense of being brave enough to face reality, i live in the present not in the past, i must brave enough to embrace the present and to give the love i should give to someone else, which is you ― nita. i always afraid and worried that i wouldnt be able to give love in proper and complete way to you, but ive tried the best i can for you my prettiest.

Dear

Nita,

My muse Nita.

if you ask why i fell in love with you, i will never know the reason; it all happened without a plan and deception, i dont understand the reason either, i always felt like we had known eachother for a long time, everything went so easily, without any burden, you gave me meaning and perspective on life which is “painful”, life isnt as painful and hard as i used to think, showing my true self isnt that painful, sharing many things isnt that painful, and loving isnt that painful, your presence bring a sense of comfort and safety deep within my heart, im grateful for the destiny that gave me the chance to experience something joyful, im grateful that you exist since the day one, im grateful that nita is in the right time.

Dear

Nita,

My delicate Nita.

maybe this a bit excessive, but i see a reflection of god in you, its a somewhat complicated mataphor, but ill try to explain it a little, basically im not a person who could be called religious, but i still do my obligatory prayers and avoid the prohibitions, even tho im come from a religious environment either, it feels like god has given me a wake up call to remember him, nita, this one human being created by god, has pushed me to know god better, to become a more loving person, and love myself and others, both you and god have sparked something in me that i have long searched for with great difficulty, just like my love for god, i have no reason for my love for you, but the difference is that spiritual connection, of course, that is on another level, i hope god wont be angry and will continue to be kind by giving you happiness in every second in your life.

finally im grateful to have been given the chance to love and write for you, like the works and thoughts of great people who lived hundread years ago. with this, qonita will always live as a from a true love from a mundane unspecial human being ― fahru.