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THROUGH THE EYES OF A MOTHER

A MOTHER’s SILENT STORY

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I used to wake before dawn, before the birds began their morning chorus and before the market stalls were fully awake. My steps were steady then, my knees strong, my eyes sharp. I would walk briskly down the stairwell of our old block of flats, basket in hand, and cross the road to the hawker centre. The wet market greeted me with its familiar symphony: the clatter of cleavers, the shouts of fishmongers promising the freshest catch, the rustle of plastic bags, the hiss of steam from noodle stalls. That was my world, my little kingdom.

I was not merely shopping. I was caring. Every vegetable I chose, every fish I bargained for, every bowl of porridge I bought was for my husband and my children. My family was the centre of my universe, and I made sure their stomachs were filled and their hearts warmed. Life was hard at times, but the weight of my basket never felt like a burden. It was love made visible, one trip to the market at a time.

The Slow Fading of Abilities

Now, at ninety years old, my mornings are very different. My knees no longer carry me freely. The ache is constant, sharp some days, dull on others, but always present. To walk down the stairs is to risk falling, and even standing for long minutes makes me breathless. My eyes, once so quick to spot the freshest greens, betray me. The doctor calls it macular degeneration. To me, it feels like living behind a veil that grows thicker each month. Faces blur, words swim, and the once-familiar streets turn uncertain.

I stay at home now. From my chair by the window, I listen to the street. The hawker centre across the road is still there, but I see it only as shapes and shadows. I hear its noises carried by the wind: the chopping, the shouting, the laughter. I remember the smells that no longer reach me – the warm fragrance of kopi, the savoury smoke of fried kway teow. Memories sharpen what my senses have lost, but they are only memories.

A helper now does the marketing. She is kind, patient, and efficient. My children arranged it so that I do not have to struggle. I know it is for the best. Yet in my heart, I miss the simple pride of returning home with bags full, knowing I had provided. That sense of purpose, that quiet dignity, slips away when someone else carries the basket for me.

Companionship and Solitude

Loneliness is a strange companion. In younger days, I never thought I would fear silence. The block used to echo with the chatter of neighbours, with aunties calling to one another, with friends gathering after marketing for kopi and kaya toast. We would talk about everything – our husbands, our children, our aches and worries, and our hopes that tomorrow would be a little kinder.

But most of them are gone now. One by one, farewells replaced gatherings. Empty chairs remain where laughter used to be. I outlived many of my friends, and while I am grateful for the gift of years, the price of longevity is solitude.

I tell myself not to complain. After all, my daughter lives here with me and my husband. Her presence fills the flat with gentle activity – doors opening, the smell of warm rice, the faint clicking of her computer keyboard as she works on late-night accounts. She is here, yet there are moments when I still feel the hush of loneliness. Perhaps it is not the absence of people, but the absence of those who once shared my memories.

Still, her nearness is a blessing. When she peeks in to ask if I need tea, when she steadies my arm as I rise from the chair, I feel anchored. I know many elderly mothers live alone. I do not take her presence for granted.

Thoughts of My Children

Even at eighty-five, a mother’s heart never stops worrying.

My eldest son, gentle and dutiful, carries the weight of work and loans. He still pays off the housing loan, and I see the strain behind his smile. He visits when he can, always bringing little treats for me, but his shoulders are heavy with responsibility. I pray for him each night, that he will find peace and not break under the demands of modern life.

My second son is different. A medical specialist, busy and successful. I am proud of him – any mother would be. His patients respect him, his name is known. But his time is scarce. His calls are short, his visits hurried. I tell myself that it is because he is important, that others need him, but sometimes I just wish he would sit quietly with me, without the clock ticking.

My daughter, my youngest, is my constant companion. An accountant by profession, she works hard, sometimes too hard. She is capable, but I sense her restlessness. I sense her frustrations, when she nags at me. Yes, oft I’m forgetful these day. She carries her own quiet burdens – work stress, the pressure of being the one who stays. I worry that she puts her own dreams aside for our sake. A mother can see what words do not reveal.

Both my sons are married with families of their own. My daughter remains single, and though she insists she is content, I sometimes wonder about her future when I am gone. I pray she will not be lonely as I sometimes am.

Children grow, they become adults with their own responsibilities, and parents must learn to let go. But letting go does not mean ceasing to care. Concern is stitched into a mother’s soul. Even as my body weakens, my heart beats for them.

A World That Forgets the Elderly

Sometimes I think the younger generation does not understand what it means to grow old. They rush past us in the MRT, they grow impatient when we take longer at the cashier, they sigh when we do not hear clearly or move quickly enough. I see the irritation in their eyes, the way they glance at their phones rather than look at us.

But they forget: one day, they too will be old. Their steps will slow, their eyes will blur, their hands will tremble. They too will long for patience, for kindness, for the simple dignity of being seen.

It is easy to dismiss the elderly as burdens. But behind every old face is a life lived fully: decades of sacrifice, of working, of raising children, of enduring hardship. We were once young, once strong, once the ones providing. To be old is not to be useless; it is to have lived long enough to hold wisdom, to know what truly matters.

The world does not often ask for our stories anymore. But if it did, it might learn patience, resilience, gratitude, and humility. We have walked paths that younger feet have not yet known.

What I Hope the Young Will Learn

I do not share these thoughts to complain. I share them because I hope the young will listen.

Be patient with your elders. When we repeat a story, know that it is not forgetfulness but memory trying to stay alive. When we walk slowly, know that we once walked quickly for you. When our eyes cannot see clearly, know that they once watched over you every night as you slept.

Visit often. Not just to drop off food or medicine, but to sit, to talk, to share time. For us, time is the most precious gift. Each conversation, each touch of a hand, each shared meal is worth more than gold.

See us not as fading figures but as living reminders of where you came from. One day, you will be where we are now. And how you treat us will shape how you will be treated when your hair is white and your steps unsteady.

Respect age, not because it is frail, but because it carries stories, sacrifices, and love that built the foundation for your life.

The Mirror of Tomorrow

As I sit by the window, the street outside moves with the energy of life. Children run, workers hurry, hawkers shout. I am no longer part of that pace, but I am still here, still watching, still loving.

The truth of ageing is this: life narrows. The walls close in, the circle of friends shrinks, the body falters. But the heart remains wide. My love for my children, my hopes for their happiness, my prayers for their health – these only grow.

I want the young to know that when you see an old woman moving slowly, she is not just old. She is someone who once rushed to work, who once cradled babies, who once laughed with friends under the hawker-centre lights. She is someone who gave, so that others could grow.

One day, you too will sit by a window, remembering. What kind of memories will you hold then? Will you wish you had been more patient, more attentive, more kind to those who grew old before you?

Think about that. Because age comes to everyone.

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GOW Hui Yian SuperWellior