Hape’ Session #2

On May 31st I had had my second Hape’ ceremony and I don’t know why I waited this long to write about it but I know that everything happens exactly when it is supposed to and I am in a quiet house on a cool summer evening and my truck is in the shop, so now is the time to tell you about Hape’ session #2.

I walked into the studio and was instantly drawn to a shelf of crystals. But not all the crystals. One specific crystal. On my current journey of self-discovery I was learning:

1 what Self-Love means to me, and…

2 also giving up alcohol (I was 21 days in) I was and have been using crystals to help me stay focused on love, on goodness, on peacefulness, on staying present in the moment

So, I go up and grab this beautiful smooth blue crystal. It was cool in my hand, sleek and comforting. I needed it. It came at the exact right time and I didn’t even know I was looking for it. Wait, this isn’t mine. I shook my head. I set it down and hugged several women around me who I was so comforted, excited and happy to see.

I settled onto a pillow and asked my hostess about that crystal again. She grabbed it and another raw crystal that was a similar color and handed them to me, telling me what she thought they were.

“Do you want to use them during our session?” she asked.

“Very much,” I replied and I held one in each hand.

Oracle cards were passed around, face down. We were instructed that if we wanted to have hands on Reiki during the Hape’ we should set them face up.

I stopped all thoughts and concentrated on my card. We did a short meditation and I saw a raw green crystal/geode and instantly thought “heart chakra”.

As the hostess explained what was going to happen I flipped my card over. I smiled.

It was a green bird surrounded by other birds. Green like the crystal I saw in my meditation. And, a bird (!) of all things. And above the bird? During this, my self-love seeking/understanding leg of my journey? The word “INDIVIDUALITY”.

Perfect.

I set my crystals next to my amazing card and prepared for the Hape’.

Celestite, Individuality and Angelite to lead me through Hape’

We began.

She blew the Hape’ into my left nostril and that familiar burning seared through my nasal passage, choking me momentarily and I focused on my breath. Nostril #2 came soon after and I settled into my space.

The music began and this time the Hape’ took me away even more quickly than my first time. I was flying again. I was joyous. My mind was completely clear of all chatter. The 3 ladies took turns guiding us through, performing Reiki, and I focused on where I was and how wonderful it felt.

I asked my Angels and my Spirit Guides to be with me, I grabbed my crystals in front of me and held onto them tightly. I was flying. I was above and in and outside of it all. I was light and I was love and I was exactly everything I need. I wanted to laugh. I wanted to stand up and just fly away into the air. I felt as if I could.

I felt cool hands on my shoulders, on my arms. Ahhh.. she is grounding me. I will call her “L”. Although I had met her only once, I knew it was her hands on my shoulders. Grounding me. I settled back into my body and appreciated that she was helping me. She pressed on my shoulders, she moved my hair and touched that spot on my neck, that portal and that closed, healed spot “K” helped me with last time I saw her. The spot that still ached sometimes, she touched that spot and I smiled. She was healing me.

She moved on and I was alone again in my space.

I remembered my intention then and I asked my Angels and my Spirit Guides to be with me, to help me pour out all of the remaining negativity in me, any hurt, any regret, any anger, jealousy, hatred, all of it. I set the crystals back on the floor in front of me. I felt it all leave me and flow right into the earth below me. I felt it all just rush out of me like a faucet was turned on and it poured out and it poured away from me. The song that was playing was a woman who was also guiding us with the exact right words I needed. I felt empty. I felt relieved of everything htat was left that I didn’t need, that didn’t serve me any longer.

“L” at that moment instructed us to fill our spaces with Love, with Goodness, with Abundance, and I was already there before she even finished her sentence. I could see the brilliant white light coming through my crown and filling all of those spaces, lovingly caressing all of the areas that were free now.

I needed to feel myself. I took my hands and I touched all of me, I appreciated every muscle, every stretch of skin. I placed my hands on my belly and squeezed the skin, the last of that fat that I have been dropping bit by bit since I stopped drinking. I felt my legs, my feet, my toes, my arms, I hugged myself. I felt my neck, my head, my face. I stretched my legs out in front of me but pulled them back in quickly, crossing them. I focused on my Angels and my Guides and my arms started burning.

A good burn. It was hot heat flowing through my arms into my hands. I felt like a super hero! I wanted to fly again. Is this what Captain Marvel feels like I asked myself and stifled a laugh. I LOVED this feeling.

“J” came behind me and put her hands on my shoulders, intutively knowing I needed grounded yet again. She rushed her hands down both of my arms and I smiled again. “you are so good” I whispered and she chuckled quietly. She placed her hand on my head and blew and I was grounded again.

We were nearing the end and “L” took us through breathwork like only she can and I was coming back now to the room, I could feel that burning in my arms again. I didn’t want to leave. I asked for the Universe to send me abundance, to send me signs, to take me to the next step in my journey, I am ready. I. Am. Ready.

We opened our eyes to the sounds of bells. My eyes were new. I could see things in a new way. My crystals in front of me and my wonderful bird card right where I left them, reminding me where this session started and also where I was at that moment. Free.

I felt nausea hit me like a punch. I heaved and put my cup to my lips and breathed. Another punch.

I asked for the restroom and walked quickly, taking a deep breath. I opened the toilet and looked down into it and the feeling of vomiting left me immediately.

I went back out and sat down. We each shared our experience. I volunteered to go first because I was just SO HAPPY and excited! “L” told me the burning I felt was energy.

After we shared, we placed out cushions and pillows back in their rightful place and gathered our things. I asked “J” about the crystals — if they were for sale.

“Do you want them?” she asked.

“I need them” I said.

She gave them to me and hugged me tight.

I walked out of the studio into the evening air and took a deep wonderful breath. I looked down and there of course was a penny.

My penny

I looked up at the sky “shooting star” I thought. But no, it was just the white tail from a jet high in the air. I laughed.

I climbed into my truck and pulled away. About a half mile down the road something was flapping under my windshield wiper. At the next red light I stopped and got out and removed a napkin someone had placed. I read it and was floored.

Signs and love and amazingness immediately after I left, just like I asked for.

Fanfare from a fellow Marvel nerd

I was still very nauseous on my drive home, went to bed feeling sick. I had literally purged myself spiritually. I woke up the next morning feeling wonderful.

My weekend continued to be amazing, but I have talked your ear off long enough. I saw Kenny Chesney in concert and #1 did not have a drink (first concert sober) and #2 LOVED myself, SANG out loud, enjoyed every moment.

The Spidey guy who left the note on my truck was actually just minutes away from me at my concert, at a convention that I SHOULD have gone to because- what are the odds? But I could not make it work.

Today I am 8 months free, and also 31 days free from alcohol. The amazing things that have happened to me in my life, but also (and maybe especially) recently leaves me warm and snuggly inside.

I have so much more to tell you! So. Much. More!

Soon, soon.

Thank you for reading. I hope you are inspired, I hope you have that antsy itch inside that you also want more and that you seek it.. and that you find it.

Mwah. ❤