interlinked souls

interlinked souls

do you ever feel a deep connection towards someone?

that no matter how far away you were from each other,

no matter how long you lost touch of each other,

and no matter how much you avoid each other,

you always tend to somehow find your way back to each other..

without even trying to.

it’s like being interlinked with someone no matter how much time has passed,

yet you’ll still have this soft spot for them.

though physically apart, there’s this suffocating tie that you can’t easily cut off ‘cause of how it is deeply intertwined.

every smile, every memories, every obstacles, basically every little things leads back to thinking of them.

and i’m afraid that i will forever be interlinked with you. your soul. your heart.

everything connects to you.

or i’d like to think so.

but we knew it also comes with consequences,

like being in this constant cycle;

patterns that keeps on going until we get to the point,

…when promises were broken,

hearts were shattered,

which made those memories i used to cherish turn into something i wished never happened.

at all.

but here we are..

still longing for each other.

even carrying too many wounds already,

funny thing is that our souls tend to crave what hurts us the most.

and those stolen glances, keeping tabs,

what’s up with that huh?

why would you even look at me like that if you already chosen somebody else?

why do you say you love me just to leave me hanging?

souls interlinked so hard that even with new people in our lives, we still think of each other.. somehow i hate that.

i hate the thought of you thinking of me while having a different person by your side.

because if i were to be real,

it doesn’t flutter me,

it bothers me instead.

“do you only like the idea of me?”

the idea of knowing that we will keep on going back to each other’s lives because that’s how we are.

you know i have soft spot for you.

i realized having this deep connection with a person is not always a good thing.

because it slowly consumes you.

it drowns you.

we may have been feeling like our souls are interlinked but i will find a way to get myself out of this cycle. (hopefully)

no matter how intertwined we think the tie is,

i know there’s way to untie whatever it is that keeps on pulling us towards each other.

because what do i do with all this connection, if it only means losing myself in the process?

we are both hurting.

and i think that’s enough.

we’ve had enough.

enough of this charades.

enough with this so-called “red string.”