I just turned 30, you will too 1 day

I just turned 30 yesterday. Not gonna lie, for a brief second I felt like a proper joey about it lol.

And this might sound like your’re on a pity lane with me, but it’s not for real. Just stay with me.

You know how when you’re in your teens, thirty sounds… settled, struggling but settled. People who are thirty seem like they’ve figured out at least the broad outline. Not that they’re done, but the lanes are pretty much feels like laid. Career lane. Marriage lane etc. cause like come on they’re THIRTY.

Yeah… turns out that’s not always how it goes. I mean, I’m right here lol.

When I was 23–24, I remember casually deciding that by 30 I’d obviously be married maybe become a dad by then lol. That just felt like natural. I didn’t stress about it. I thought like ..yeah. Btw not gonna lie, I did designed my suit then too, It’s all black obviously.

Somewhere along the way, I also decided I’d definitely do a proper cross-country bike trip before turning 30. Because I love riding. And that felt like a very naturally me thing to do.

Fast forward.

At 29, I could suddenly see 30 standing there poking. That’s when it started feeling real.

On my 29th birthday I put on my action cam and went for a ride around my area, cause I had the camera for a while and it just felt the right time to experience it. Loved it. I remember thinking, “In an year, I’ll have a bunch of these videos. I’ll get good at this. Maybe it’ll even turn into something.”

Few days later, the camera got stolen. And just like that, that story line quietly ended. Not dramatically. Just… ended.

In the mid of 2025 I started a new hustle, it felt really great, I was kinda making good progress, it was slow but I felt alright cause the work was good and I was for once getting some positive results for myself. I even told my sister half jokingly half serious cause we never celebrate birthdays, we’d ride to the mountains for my 30th birthday. It felt like a cool before life gets serious kind of plan.

Then the hustle hit a concrete wall, It was terminal lol. Proper technical, out-of-nowhere type wall. Financially, the mountain plan stopped making sense.

Last week I thought okay, let’s restart the moto vlog. I’ve got the camera again why not start on the birthday night. Would be a Nice title for thr video, nice full-circle moment. I even charged the batteries and everything.

Didn’t go.

Got busy. Regular life busy. Nothing dramatic. It just didn’t happen.

One of my hobbies is to write stuff, I am not good at it but I often do write about the stuff I find interesting, about my life and what’s going on in my head. I knew I’d write something for 30. It was sitting somewhere in the back of my head. It didn’t happen, was busy the whole day.

Last night I was thinking about all that and it made me chuckle how we make so many plans and almost none of it ever happens and life still moves on. We create these very detailed future documentaries in our heads. Background music and all. And then real life goes, “Hmm. Interesting script. Anyway…”

Some of it doesn’t happen because we didn’t push hard enough. Sometimes it’s because we didn’t put in enough work. Sometimes it’s just stuff we couldn’t control. And some of it just fades.

A few years from now, I’ll probably remember these almost-moments just out of blue. Maybe I’ll laugh. Maybe I’ll shake my head but I hope at that moment I’m filled with the sense of gratefulness for all the good things that happened cause there are many I mean a lot lol, and for all those that didn’t cause at the end God’s in charge, that’s what really it is.

The black suit is definitely coming and who knows maybe the mountain ride will happen at the time it’s meant to be. On to the next one.