Good evening my name is James , I seem very new to this but in my head i feel like ?

Good evening my name is James , I seem very new to this but in my head i feel like ? why does anyone want to read my life story about my experiences , well i asked that over and over again in my thoughts , But then i realized it can be a way to express my thoughts on paper even if people don't read about it at least i tried something new, I’m not going to use my name in this because i feel uncomfortable ,but ,what i will do is this , i will try put in as much detail and interesting experiences so i don't make people bored that they decide to scroll- but of course we all do it — don’t we.

I am unsure on how to move onto the starting point — but here we go ,I grew up in a small village known for sailing and Yacht racing and so much love for the Sea and fishing and farming, I grew-up having such an obsession with boats that it has been part of everything i do from the age of 12 all the way to the present day ,well not everything but by the time I reached 15 or 16 I started learning to sail and the obsession that i had age age 12 or 13 had become more strongly influenced,

At age 15 or 16 ,year 2018 i started doing Sail-ability before i joined i kept Being so negative because all through my Primary & Secondary level education people treated me like i was a nothing ,they would do horrible things & many times i compared the disability education sector to the education back in the 1940–2000 , I was blackmailed to play sports and i was shouted at and bribed with coffee and biscuits and money to be friends with people who bullied me a lot, In other schools i was bullied by teachers and principals ,after being treated like that for many many years i shut myself down and started lying to people spending a lot of time watching my peers live life,

I have went through stages of feeling isolated , over time grew as a person .from going on tall ships to volunteering in Sail-ability programs to helping tall ship charities and rowing its great but nothing that actually gives you tick the box feel,

while doing all that i spent time exploring meeting people helping on different boats around west cork from classic boats and projects to Yachts and RIBs — Ridged Inflatable boats to speedboats and tall ships to super yachts to fishing trawlers to super yacht support vessels to confidential support yachts that carry anything

and than i worked on a private island , it was great it felt like being in the Caribbean to the Med, but not as comfortable always being watched and monitored 23/7

after that went to college do a course and drop out half way through ,the course was professional cookery Level 5 , Now trying to start a commercial marine and training company that would hopefully operate in 12 locations , starting in Baltimore and Kinsale and Bantry then expanding to Malahide then to Belfast and London and Southampton then onto Faroe-Portugal then onto Toronto and Vancouver and Bangkok And Sydney

my story is mostly about me trying to get an education and trying to get into boating — I'm still struggling to get into boating because i have a disability — autism and people see that as incapable its really hard to get plans off the ground , like im currently looking for 100k and a lot of people are expecting me fail but i have business owners around that being really supportive ,

any way i plan to post in a few weeks time on updates