July 13, 2026 — There are traces of polonium. What have you dragged us into?

Hospital?

• (F) The test results came back. There are traces of polonium here. Listen, what have you dragged us into?
• (F) Are you sure?
• (F) 100%.
• (F) Fuck.
• (Me) Is this serious?
• (F) Yes, Olya, it’s serious.
• (Me) (Feeling guilty)

I don’t have direct memory of this and don’t know when and where it could happen, but I do have lymphocytosis, and in 2017–2018 I was severely ill.

The official diagnosis they gave me was wrong — thyrotoxicosis, autoimmune inflammation of the thyroid gland. They even wanted to remove my thyroid gland. I had to undergo additional tests at my own expense and on my own initiative to get a reasonably comprehensive picture of my health.

A massive dose of polonium causes severe Acute Radiation Syndrome (ARS). But a lower dose can trigger illness and cancer without immediate death.

I have an enlarged liver, issues with my spleen and kidneys, and a shifted blood profile. The reason is probably not just the use of amnesia-inducing drugs, but also this flashback. It is clear why they want to frame me as an alcoholic, mentally retarded or something: on an everyday level, it provides an easy explanation for why a person died prematurely.

I am Olha Stefanishyna, originally from Sevastopol, Crimea.

This is a first-person testimony, based on dissociative flashbacks. I am recording them and analyze them. I do it because I have amnesia and didn’t know I am injured and traumatized till I started to work through it. No one worked with me on it so I am looking for witnesses and support on my own. Open letter.

Incidents from my direct memory, my commentary and real facts are marked in bold.

The date of the events, described in the flashbacks is unknown. Location is mixed.