A beautiful part of me was my childhood with toys🌸

which I really miss🥺

Sometimes we go back to time and realize how we were happy when we are kids. Childhood was the best moment of life, where we had no career, no study, no future tension. Just playing. I was a child who played with dolls alone. I still have some Tady beer.

I love them because a beautiful part is memorized with them. My toys were much important to me, that today maybe my books are not that important.

My grandmother, she’s no more, but she brought me many toys, many dolls, because she knew that only dolls could bring happiness to me, because I loved them very much.

Now I don’t have that much but some Tady beers are normally kept in my room. My mother says that “what should you do with them, you should give them to a kid”, but I am not ready because I remember my childhood when I see them, and I miss that.

Now I have friends, but before my best friends were just Tady beers.

Oh! I grow up so early, I want to be a kid again. That time no judgment, no harsh words but today I go through hard words, and by judgment. If we come to our teen doesn’t mean that we are not a child, we are still child.

I still can remember that time, when my sister, broke my favorite barbie doll. I cried too much, so I didn’t eat food. My father brought me a new doll, but still I wasn’t happy because I only loved that. My father was ready to take me shop, that what doll, I like I should choose but no, I only loved that barbie. My sister regretted too much, but I was not ready to forgive her, I still maybe can forgive her, because I loved that one even I had better ones, but that was my only choice.

No matter how old I am but little Mehreen exist in me, that why I watch cartoons better then dramas and film, I buy cute baby things, for me like cute hairpins which mostly kid put, not girly hairpins, but baby hairpins.

Today I went back to childhood, because someone gave me cute little balls and those balls remained, that beautiful part, which I have left, that part of me which is yet not discovered.

Thank you, thank you very much for reminding me of my inner child.

Life goes on, when we were kid we just wanted to grow up, but now we want to be a kid again. Before we cried for a broken doll, but today we smile with a broken heart.

2024 was a very bad year for me because in this year, society, family expanded their Strick rules on me. 2024 was my worst year, it was painful and I was very depressed. In 2024, I just realized this in nuanced I lost my childhood in early age. Now I do anything I am judged because now I am girl before a child. I can feel that when a boy grows, family’s expectation will gain more for them, but when a girl grows, family will sob for her marriage. Society doesn’t like girl they just adjust it. They want to see their marriage not success. In this modern life, in some countries, like Pakistan, Iran, India and Bangladesh , teen girls are engaged and many of them are married as well. This is not important that someone should raise a voice for them, no they themselves should raise their voices but people like it when a girl career has destroyed just because of marriages and engagements.

I am maybe 15 years old and in these 15 years I just experienced inequality between girls and boys.

However, never leave your childhood because how old are you, doesn’t matter, but the inner child of you makes you alive.