When things don’t go your way…

I’ll give the initials of my name, M.S., as I don’t like the spotlight very much. This is my very first time writing on Medium, therefore I’ll try to speak from the heart. At the moment, things are not going my way. In a way, my life has been a string of these moments where things have not gone my way. In these moments, I have felt sleepy, I have felt nothing and on top of that I’ve felt like there was no solution. The thought of making no progress towards your life objectives is extremely scary. Days and nights passing by, and things don’t seem to change. The question I ask myself in these moments is the following: “Are things really not changing?” And then the wise me comes up with an answer, which is rather comforting: “Things are changing, but you are so caught up in thinking what’s wrong, that you fail to notice the positive changes.” There is this expression that I really love: “God gives the strongest battles, to its strongest warriors.” When I think of my life, I find peace in knowing that I am being tested. What do I mean by being tested? I am being tested by life, so that the characteristics that I need to face my future life are cultivated within me. Some of these characteristics are patience, empathy, non-judgement and faith. Now, I ask myself: “Would I ever look at life in a totally different prospective, hadn’t these moments happened?” Sometimes, they don’t have a clear cause. They just happen. So, days and nights seem to be the same, but they are not the same, as the future stronger me is emerging. The future me pays more attention to things that I did not consider before, the future me is more caring, the future me is very patient, the future me puts no label to things, the future me accepts life as it comes, the future me knows that even though things might seem hopeless right now, they won’t be that way forever, the future me knows that I’ll draw the right circumstances in my life, when I least expect it and the future me knows that life itself is way more intelligent than what my conscious self can perceive. Now, I look at life in awe. How could something that I thought was impossible, come into fruition? But then, I know why. I know now that even in our darkest hours, we are protected by life and its intelligence. In the end, things will happen, not as we wished them to be, but as they need to be. There is a clear difference between the two. Things being as they need to be is much more powerful. It comes from a position, where you’ve experienced the hardship and you know that now you have wisdom. And wisdom is life’s way of saying: “Thank you! Thank you for holding in there, when things seemed impossible! Thank you for trusting in my intelligence! Thank you for knowing that I know what’s the right way for you!” And then, you feel that feeling of fulfilment, which you would not feel otherwise. That feeling cannot be bought by all the money in the world. That feeling is the whole embodiment of living in itself.