Whatever people say I am, that’s what I’m not.

Some of you might know Arctic Monkeys, yep those lads from sheffield. You guys might recognize the title. Yes this piece was inspired by their early album names. I’ve been listening to them like crazy, my spotify would know.

what a scummy man

Anyway, the title. Whatever people say I am, that’s what I’m not, yeah what a f-ing banger innit? The sentence not the album. I think we all have been a slave to that, like people say certain things about us that we don’t agree.

Case study: me (what a narcisistic lad, anyway)

I am a medical student. Based on that one sentence you’d probably have a rough image about me. Nerd, glasses, read books all day, smart, socially awkward, zero social life, responsible, doesn’t eat junk food, doesn’t smoke, doesn’t drink, yadda yadda. Well I’m not even 20% of them, which is why I try my best to never put any medicine related stuffs on my online presence (except when I do) because it’s not me. It’s a profession, sure and I am currently studying that, but when people say stuffs like

“wow hes such a good kid, his parents must be proud”

I’d be like no sir/maam/(second person gender neutral word).

You wouldn’t believe how often I made my mother cry, made my heart ache so much to be honest and that’s just one thing.

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I oftentimes get those “You have a lot of people looking up to you” or

“You have a lot of fans”. and et cetera

which made me curious like what do you see in me that made you “wow this guy’s such a role model holy sh-”.

I look at myself in the mirror and be like “seriously? this guy? sok iye dah nih orang”. Like if you know me, see me the way I see myself you’d agree.

Then.. there’s the bad things that people say about you. Oh boy here we go. When they say the wall speaks, they do. Like you’re being watched 24/7. You do one mistake boom everybody knows it.

What the hell

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I honestly am okay with it like whatever you all say and yeah it probably are true lol but when it comes to other people that you’re dragging with me like c’mon bro what is your problem. “I heard he’s making a move on that girl” “I heard she went out with him” Like yo. bro. damn it rhymes (ahem sorry) yo, I’m actually okay if you drag me to the bottom of the earth or whatever, I don’t care but leave the other person alone man, don’t gossip about them. Like “I heard they’re friends with him” iite, so your point? Like if you want to talk shit then just talk about me, don’t go along dragging people that I care about, you could probably find something to talk about me for days cause I do stupid things on a daily basis. #felt

Then we have arrived at the point of this essay.

which is

Just do you.

Hear me out People will always talk, that’s what we do, we gossip, we praise, we talk shit. Everybody does it. Which means that there are approx 7 billion people on this earth to talk shit about, so why bother. Everyone has their own opinion an you’ll be a topic of gossip anyway, so just.. be real I guess. Own it. As long as it’s not hurting people then be proud of what you do.

And what a scummy man Just give him half a chance I bet he’ll rob you if he can Can see it in his eyes, yeah That he’s got a driving ban Amongst some other offences

When the sun goes down by Arctic Monkeys