The Ideal Life

“Home” by Yaguis Imareal

I cannot go home.

Not tonight again.

Where I will feel the fear of them.

Soon all would rot away.

I hoped they’d forget who I was.

They did not.

Hated, disgraced.

Give them a smile.

I cannot go home.

Not tonight again.

The eyes will bear down on me.

Screams shrill in my ears.

I will be in my bedroom alone.

They get mad.

Ruined, forgotten.

It’s all okay despite.

I cannot go home.

Not tonight again.

With tortured souls who listen.

No escape from whispers.

I am but a mosquito in the window.

They kill me.

Ugly, disgusting.

Breathe on for now.

I cannot go home.

Not tonight again.

Just let me stay asleep for now.

Not back into their world.

I can barely breathe through my head.

They made us.

Boiled, destructive.

They wasted the tears.

I cannot go home.

Not tonight again.

Justified to abandon my hope.

Torn my shreds apart again.

I blame them for everything I lost.

They did this.

Tired, restricted.

We grieve the final loss.

I cannot go home.

Not tonight again.

Phased away the last of love.

Open wound of emotions.

I wait so kindly just to fade away.

They wish so.

Yearning, broken.

Never more to remember.

I cannot go home.

Not tonight again.

Believe this was not your cause.

Or fault of one like you.

I smile tonight with my joy unbound.

They loved me.

Ready, completed.

The day of rest is upon us.

I cannot go home.

Not tonight again.

Goodbye to the moon and stars.

We left for that very sake.

I pray you’ll live in my peace forever.

They try it.

Vivid, thriving.

Never like me, alive.

End.