Star date 01161997

Journal Entry

This happened a long time ago. Well, maybe 2 weeks ago. Pete came over to my house crying saying that he wanted to be in love with me again, that he missed me, I was too good for him and the only reason we weren’t together was because of me, He asked me to stay with him that night. He was drunk and I wonder he was wearing beer goggles or hif more truth comes out when your are drunk than most other times? Well anyway then all that stuff happened right after of the stuff I wrote about last time. Pete came over to my huse this past turesday and I made us lunch since I didn;t go to schoool and we hung out and were getting along really well then my mom came home and he ran out the back door. Krysia came by because her car needed a jump so I got dressed ’cause I was only in boxers and a t-shirt. Pete showed back up at my door but I had to leave so he said he would call me. I helped Krysia. Later that night K-came over and we got fucked up and went driving around. We went to unical where that hot guy works and told Rob clues to tell him. I thought he was handsome. I found out his name is Todd Ryan and he is WOSC’s quarterback. Oops- that’s not gone to happen-oh well positive thinking. Then we went back to my hous and Pete’s mom had called me ’cause Pete had and jo I needed to find him to tell him so we drove to Bubba’s and he was high and drunk so I got mad at him, drove to the store to buy him a soda and while I was there in the store I he said some stuff to K that her think he liked me. So I took Pete back to his friends and then K went home well, around 12 am. I decided to go to Petes. I stayed the night. We had sex and the next day we ate breakfast toether then at school all these guys were paying attention to me. I got a flat tire, Allen fixed it for me. His kinda cute if you ask me. The Pete later that night took K justing and me out to pizza. I had a salad. Pete took one of my cucumbers and put salt on it and ate it. He alway said that is what I taste like. I asked him about it and he said he didn’t mean anything by it but I have never seen Pete eat veggis in my entire life he alwasys said they were unhealthy. Then we played pool and he told me that I was being annoying. When we left he didn’t say bye. Asshole. Today I went to Pete’s to return his sweatshirt I borrowed and he was talking to Buffy. yucky. But he had called me earlier so I thought we were on good terms. Anyway, I walked into his room and yelled “Hi Buffy!” and she asked Pete why I was there and I yelled “ as if it’s any of your fucking business, why are you talking to Pete after you kissed him while we were going out you fucking whore!” I was so mad. I asked if Pete had told her that I was the one he was talking to earlier, he said yes. Buffy asked Pete if were still together and he said no. They hung up and I chewed on Pete as to why he didn’t respect me or value my friendship. He said he treats all of his friends like me. I told him that he couldn’t compare me to his other friends because unless they’d fucking him every day for last year and a half, they were not equal to me at all. Pete was asking me why I didn’t move. I said that I had thought we were friends. He started talking a grip of shit so I said fine, you know what, bye. He said Peace. I told him to burn in hell. My brother told me to stay away from him, that he wouldn’t know what he was missing until I was gone. K said the same thing and I know this but is so hard for me not to have control. I want him to want me, but I can’t make him. Jesus help me!!!