It’s Happening! I’m Dating.

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Wow. So, I got divorced 8 years ago. The marriage was bad. I not only needed to heal from my mother, but my ex too. So, I stayed single, on purpose. I didn’t want to fall back into the same toxic patterns. Not to mention I had to protect my child from any predators.

I finally found myself 2 years ago. It was traumatic! I figured out I had Dissociative Identity Disorder, & my personality was split into 5 parts. I literally compartmentalized my personality for my personal safety. It took me the last two years to integrate & get to this point that I am my most healthy version of me; mind, body, & soul.

I found that I develop crushes fairly quickly. At least I’m aware. I had one experience that lasted about 2 months of hanging out with a guy that ended abruptly because he made comments that normalized him cheating, & that’s a massive ick. Then he tried to gaslight me. So, I blocked him.

My newest crush is something I’m looking forward to exploring. He is sweet, he’s interested in getting to know me, he communicates clearly… like oh emm gee, guys! I’m smitten.

It’s a completely virtual experience at this moment. We met on VRChat. VRChat is a virtual reality “game” that is really a mixture of social media, networking, & games. It’s actually incredible. I started during Covid in 2020. I took a year break twice, but it always pulls me back in.

Anyways, back to the point. I’m ready to let others into my life. I’m healed enough to form new relationships with friends. Finding my forever, since my forever previously was just people that used & abused me. I have strong boundaries now. I know & love myself now & pretty much have zero tolerance for toxic behavior.

Wish me luck, because dating is daunting.