Moving on between Schizophrenia (Track 001)

Afternoon After Math. (M)athematics (A)fter (D)etermining (N)ext (E)ntry. (S)essions (S)eparately. Motorway 1. (Tales)

Doof Doof Doof

Come in.

You wanted to see me, Matty Sea? Hear I am, it’s me. Me.

Yes, M1. Sorry I mean Tails. I wanted to speak to you alone. Get to know you a little bit better.

What? Know me? No, me. I am you, me. Matty 1. Matty runs Matty, Matty runs. Forest Gum Gump Gumption Get it Gumby? Stop chewing me out Matty you have enough on your plate.

Look. I thought the best way for us to figure us out, is to have a little therapy session.

Where has this come from? Matty?

Look, drop the Matty act. It’s just us. Hear? Noise there is none.

Oh, fun. Doormat.

60 Minutes on the clock. It’s 12.21. Time has already begun.

Yeah but your therapy sessions aren’t 60 minutes. Those therapists trying to untether me talk for 53 minutes Max.

Matt.

53 minutes left, Matty.

Touché

Bobby Boucher?

No, stop playing. You aren’t the one who likes movies. I don’t know what you are.

Right on Mark.

Matt. Okay I see what you are doing. Call me Matty if you must.

Thanks, I will be fine without it. I just wanted you to know that I am in control. See?

Alright. Now we have that sorted. It’s 12.27. Stop wasting time with these rhymes Tails.

Tails never fails in N.S.W

Okay well thanks for at least saying N.S.W and not New South Wales.

Who’s wasting time now?

Caught me.

Read. Handed it over to you. Didn’t I?

Yes. Or are we, we?

Oui.

12.29.

Feelin’ Fine.

No stop hiding under there. You aren’t the show man. You speak differently. You are either Tails trying to make me fail. Selling something cellaring something, it’s been sold before from someone else inside me not withstanding, outstanding or understanding.

Or are we all hiding under the mask Matteo!!!

Stop. You are M1. Motorway 1. The first 1. I drove on, the one from where this begun.

12.31.

Ten minutes in and we are getting nowhere else inside from the outside in. Outstanding.

Stop hiding!

Go Seek. Get a job. Apply yourself.

My only job at the moment is to understand my own internal systems. I have 4 motorways 2 go through. 4 pieces of my mind that have declared themselves over 42 years.

You are 1. M1. The one that I am running on. Right now.

12.34

Okay. Begin.

It’s already begun. I’m just having fun being. Begin. Began. Begone. Beg entry beginning says begun? Already Spun.

Stop. Spinning things.

He shot me down Bang, Bang. I hit the ground bang bang.

Wait. It is you.

Yes. And let me start now we have outdone ourselves interviewing intravertically.

Not a word. But anyways. Progress.

My loneliness, is killing me.

And?????

I must confess. I still believe.

Still believe?

A fixed false belief is a delusion there chief. But continue. On with the class.

When i’m not with you I lose my mind.

Give me a sign.

Hit me baby

STOP. Stop. STOP. M1

More time!

We’re gonna celebrate Oh yeah, alright, don’t stop the dancing.

Dancing?

Are you Daft.

Punk. hmmm.

UB40?

No it’s 12.40 now.

What?

I am 42.

It’s not 12.42 yet. That would be more than 20 years before we met.

More time than that. Not minutes.

Year of the Mat.

Cat, you mean?

Whatever.

You don’t even know me. You say that i’m not living right.

You don’t understand me!

So why do you judge my life.

It’s my life that you are ruining! Not other way around.

Got to turn around. Got to turn around.

Oh you spin me right round.

Like a record baby round round round round.

Stop! Right now thank you very much.

Why do I feel like I am talking to a broken record?

Let it burn! Usher it in!

So I am getting warm?

In the beginning there was the cold and the night.

So Billy Joel Two Thousand Years. I am with you. Year 2000?

We didn’t start the fire.

We?

It was always burning.

Since our world has been turning? So before the year 2000

Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.

Since I was 3, perhaps?

If I go crazy will you still call me superman?

I don’t call you that. It’s 12.46. By the time we finish unpacking this i’ll be 47.

These are my confessions.

Usher? Again. I’m so confused. So, you turned up when I was 3? Words please M1. Was it when I was three?

No, I turned up when you were 3 doors down?

Oh, when I was born.

Precisely.

Okay can we stop this session here.

It’s 12.48.

Bathroom break required.

Wait is this an interrogation? I am the cassette tape. Am I not?

Paranoia Paranoia Everyone’s coming to get me.

Wait, that’s my job.

Where is my mind?

Uh Oh. We’re in trouble.

Uh oh uh oh uh oh.

Okay we are back. Can you state your name for the record.

Tails.

Wait. You said this wasn’t an interrogation.

It’s not.

Mmm whatcha say?

12.58 now. So, wait. how long has it actually been in session, time out. In time.

I don’t know what time zone you are in there mate.

Stop playing games.

Fair, play ground.

It’s fair ground. No play around. Press play.

5.6.7.8.

12.59 now.

Look, please stop with the Clocks.

Cold.

Please. I’ve pressed play. Why aren’t you playing you said you were a cassette tape?

OK Go!

No, you go.

I’m so lonely.

Okay so you are me. Born with me. Starting to emerge at 3.

I’m mister lonely.

Because I was lonely. That’s not enough.

Closing time, one last call for alcohol.

No don’t shut off now. I am sober now, stop trying to drown me out.

Shut up, shut up. shut up. shut up.

Oh come on. Meet me halfway. Right at the

Borderline, feels like I am going to lose my mind.

Madonna? Religious? Fergalicious? What?

I don’t want to be your prisoner, so baby, won’t you set me free?

Oh okay, so music Madonna.

Not Lady Madonna.

Mondays child has learned to tie his shoelace. M1. It’s 1.

You’re out of touch. You're out of time.

Born in 1984? Well, now we are starting to get in touch. But yes we are also running out of time.

Lady Madonna.

You said that already. Lady?

Gaga.

Ugh. All I hear is

Radio Gaga.

Radio?

B.I.N.G.O WAS HIS NAME-O.

You are the radio?

Yes. More Transformed in to bumblebee than being flight of the bumblebee.

Taping the sounds on a cassette tape to take everywhere.

Can you hear me calling.

Out your name?

So wait. You want to be everywhere with me?

You were born with me. In me? So then I am the one who wants you with me? But I don’t.

I don’t just.

I don’t just want.

I don’t just want to.

I need to. I need to understand something.

Something’s happening. Happening to me.

My friends say i’m acting peculiarly.

Riders on the Storm.

You started to become more relevant when I was 3?

I don’t know I haven’t really thought about it. I have always been here. Hear in your ear. Stop fffocusssinggg on 3. That’s just us trying to find, findings, found in our foundation. 1,2,3 things, 3 things, 3 things needed to move forward. Freezing first, freeing yourself too late.

Matty this isn’t the rule of three.

It’s the rule of me. Me. ME.

So it’s 1.05pm. I’ve lost track of time.

Don’t stop me now!

Freddie Mercury? So I am getting warmer? Mercury rising.

You are in my orbit now Matty.

Okay, okay. So you are me. Being me, outside. Externalising my thoughts. Trying to make sense of the world in the language that I heard in the background.

You tape the world on an old cassette player, and store it away just to spit it back at me all tangled up.

You are my tail. Telling the tales through the radio. That’s why I heard you on the radio. Making sense of the static in my head.

You have arrived at your station

One. One. One. 1.11pm.

Session ended.

But you said more minutes? We are not finished!!! Meeting not adjourned!

We’ve only just begun.

I’m yours.

I want to hold your hand.

Steal my sunshine?

Ain’t nothing gonna break my stride.

Ain’t nothing going to hold me down Matty. Matty hear me Matty.

Virtual insanity.

But in the end it doesn’t even MATTer.