THE JUNIOR ME

THE JUNIOR ME

I born in a typical middle class family with so many restrictions in my family growing up i felt pain of restriction on me i born in a village a typical village but with all basic facilities like electricity , appliances and all but my father was very supportive back then he was living in city to earn me and my mom and my grand parents was in village which i mentioned above my father used to send us basic groceries and other stuffs which was needed for our livelihood so life was pretty good then but because i was the only child at that time so i got some extra care from my parents so due to which i put on so much weight i become overweight at the age of 12 oh my god . But it wasn’t bothering me at all but it was to the society . Yes the society which judge us on our looks , which judge us on our weight , which judge us on our height and which judge us on our grades . so with this overweight i become lucky enough to being the next target of society they used to mock me on my weight they used to laugh on me on my overweight the words like ‘bhensh’ [buffalo] and many more phrases i got but the best part was my family never said a single word on my weight so it was a relief for me but when i was in school i was scared because every one even teachers used to mock me on my weight when i was playing with my friends i used to afraid from them because they made fun of me every time ,every single time as i was fat , i was my school topper i thought now i became school topper now no one will mock me but it wasn’t happen but i never gave up i continued studying and become topper of my class 10th and after that i lost my weight in class 10th though it regained but the point was not about losing weight or gaining weight the point is about confidence of that small child which was lost in this pressure of judgement of not becoming the so called perfect child the perfect shape or the ideal person with ideal weight but ironically my friends wasn’t there for me to support me hence i lost my confidence i just wanted to share this story because i have many stories but this story and that taunts is still inside me some corner of my heart still want acceptance and care which i was not able to get as a 12 year old that's all for now THANK YOU