78. The Plan

Dear London Fire Snake Scorpio,

I feel stupefied, my love. I am at that point where everything is spinning so fast around me that it’s all almost a blur. Don’t get me wrong — I thrive when things reel this fast. But for a person of deeds, when things get this hectic, articulation is almost beyond me. And yet, it is of immense benefit to articulate things, isn’t it?

So first, before I generally tell you what has moved over the past week, since I have not written to you since Saturday — I think — and it is Wednesday already, I want to indulge in a dream.

Let’s say this crazy adventure is not a lost cause but an actual plan. Let’s say you are out there — alive and well, and living where I predicted, and single and looking for love. (Yes, I am aware of how ridiculously slim the chance is.)

Then we go back to the first letters I wrote you — I said: “I am not ready to meet you yet.” And so, the question arises: when would I be ready?

I admit I am a perfectionist in many ways, and I tend to polish shit to dust before I commit to publishing. And I do not only mean in my writing. So, it is a good thing to articulate between you and me, at what stage I will be “baked” enough to meet you, so that perfectionism would not keep me away from you a moment too long.

I thought of making a list and updating it here when I hit milestones that I consider critical for our meeting. The path to fulfilling our fate and becoming obnoxiously happy in our love. (And don’t you bristle at me at the word Fate. We spoke about it before.)

The Plan

1. Be Born. a little obvious, but needed doing. ➡️ Accomplished on March 11, 1985. 💪
2. Survive Childhood. Done the year I got out of the army. ➡️ ️Accomplished on March 11, 2004. 💪
3. Know Great Sex. Don’t laugh, without a reference point, nothing is possible. ➡️ Accomplished in September 2025. 💪
4. Leave the warland. To be able to heal, grow, and free myself from the invisible cultural shackles of indoctrination. ➡️ Accomplished on August 1, 2018. 💪
5. Have 4 Children. As one of the three pillars of my life, this was a must. And since we had to grow to meet each other, this couldn’t have waited until we met. ➡️ Accomplished on June 4, 2019. 💪
6. Get Separated. Start the process of cleansing my body and mind from his presence. ➡️ Accomplished in 2023. 💪
7. Open a Business. To fight for proper financial freedom, opening a business, studying it, and growing mindfully as an entrepreneur are critical. ➡️ Accomplished in 2023. 💪
8. Divorce. Both religious & civil divorce were needed for me to be free in mind, soul and legalities from that man. ➡️ Accomplished in 2025. 💪
9. Finish a College Diploma. Although not a must, it definitely boosted my self-esteem and respect. In addition to my BA in social sciences, I also finished a diploma in event management. ➡️ Accomplished in October 2025. 💪
10. Build a Proper Product. It took me almost 3 years to try different industries and things until I got back to what I am good at and built a sellable product. ➡️Accomplished in January 2026. 💪
11. Open a Blog (Digital Note in a Bottle). A way to articulate myself to myself, and me to you, to keep us both tethered and to keep the hope alive. And maybe most importantly, to document the change while it is happening. ➡️ Accomplished on March 11, 2026. 💪
12. Have a Breast Reduction Surgery. I am not about to saddle you with a cripple woman, not when I can help it. Going through this surgery will help manage my neck arthritis pain and will allow me to train better, which will further improve my health. I am coming strong, not dependent. ➡️ Scheduled for July 10th, 2026.
13. Make Revenue. For both of us to be able to respect me, I have to break the one sentence that is still festering in my head that my ex planted there: That I cannot make money and, therefore, am not a productive human. I have to be able to stand on my own. ➡️
14. Close Official Debts. Well, this goes without saying isn’t it? ➡️
15. Close Unofficial Debts. There is a huge list of people and places that helped us over the years. A list I will actually share with you, code names and all. Until that list is paid, I cannot move from here. That is a dynamic list, by the way. ➡️
16. Accumulate the Egg Nest. Once all the debts are paid, I will calculate the funds we will need to get started as newcomers in London. Only once that amount is collected will I be able to start the relocation. ➡️ ️
17. Move to London. The uprooting from Canada is a process that involves finances, legalities, kids’ medical and school paperwork and a lot of logistics. So, this needs to be accomplished. ➡️ ️
18. Settle in London. To have the mental capacity to start the search for you in London, I will first need to resolve the logistics of settlement. Housing, schools, doctors, and emotional states of the beginning for myself and the kids. That takes time. ➡️

What’s next? I am not sure yet. This list will also be dynamic, I suppose. I love you, my fire snake. And as depressing as it is to look at this list and feel that I am years and years away from finding you, I am still on the path.

Always Yours, Oxy. June 3, 2026

Help me find him: Have you seen this man?