What’s she thinking?

Just a woman, Just a normal human

Everyone says “she’s silent”, “she don’t want to talk”, “she’s boring”. But…. My question is. IS SHE? Do you really know her? no, right? How easy it is easy for people to say, But never really try to know her? They say “You’re my first priority, But their action says otherwise”. She want to talk, she want to laugh, she want to do all stuffs as well. But what can she do? Her life made that innocent girl go all silent, her eyes lost those shines.

When she needed a shoulder to rely on, No one was there. She listened to everyone stories, But no one was there to listen hers. She always been as a healer but never healed. Those people who asked to share her story and when she’s finally ready to talk about it, they were busy in their own problem so she held herself together.

Isn’t it obvious that she’s a good listener that she knows who is really listening and who is not?

So she held everything within her as always. Now it is so heavy for her that she carried them for years that she can’t hide her sadness on her face. People who are close to her can sense that something is going on with her. And they expect her to share it to them and let them know and to let it out. But how can she say when she don’t get what she wants from them.

All she wants is One Person, one person for herself, One person who’ll be there for her, One person who’ll choose her over and over again, One person she can trust blindly, One person who’ll really listen. ONE PERSON?

She loves her parents so much that she don’t wanna burden them with her suffering. Because she knows that her parents loves her so much. So damn much. She don’t want her parents to know that their little girl is going through something although every inch of that little girl wants to run inside their embrace and cry her heart out.

But the other question is. Does she give up? no. No, she didn’t. Even though the world broke that innocent soul over and over and over again. Yet she choose to live although she’s just surviving knowing that one way or other she’ll make it. She’ll make herserlf proud. Because she’s suffering so much that she deserves to know that her hard work pays off.

Originally published at https://medium.com on February 6, 2026.