I’m Documenting My Attempts at Becoming Better [week 1]

Week 0: Be grounded

This week was harder than I expected.

I think I accidentally jumped into a bigger goal than I was ready for. I kept trying to “stay present” every time my mind drifted, but I still found myself chasing the past, things that are already out of reach, while also feeling anxious about the future.

My brain always seems to be somewhere else.

I tried small grounding tricks like the 5–4–3–2–1 method:

• 5 things you can see
• 4 things you can feel
• 3 things you can hear
• 2 things you can smell
• 1 thing you can taste

The idea is to bring your mind back into the current moment using your senses. It helped sometimes, but honestly, I kept forgetting to use it.

But this week made me realize something important.

Instead of trying to “fix my life” as one huge concept, I need to start noticing specific actions and behaviors that make me feel disconnected from myself.

So I started observing myself more carefully.

Whenever I noticed something I didn’t like about my habits or reactions, I wrote it down in my notes app instead of ignoring it. Not to judge myself, but to understand myself better.

One thing I noticed immediately was how attached I am to my phone.

I’m constantly consuming something scrolling, watching, distracting myself. Even during bus rides to university, I automatically reach for my phone instead of just existing in the moment.

So during my commute, I’ll either: (already started)

• read something
• or just sit with my thoughts and surroundings

Another thing I noticed is that I can’t even eat without watching something at the same time.

That’s when I realized my next challenge.

Week 2 is going to focus on reducing my screen time.

not so fun fact about me, IM ADDICTED TO TIKTOK :(

Right now, I spend way too much time on my phone without even realizing it. So my goal for next week is to keep my screen time under 3 hours a day. I’ll post my screen time screenshot next Friday and see whether I actually improved or just made excuses.

This week wasn’t great.

But maybe improvement isn’t about suddenly becoming perfect.

Maybe it’s just noticing yourself a little more each week.

One step at a time.

THINGS IM WORKING ON:

• screen time less than 3 hours.
• No phone during bus commute.
• No phone while eating.

Hopefully ill come with better results next week!!

cyaaa ❤