Only positive feelings…..

Only positive feelings…..

I started posting my write ups on medium a little over a year ago and primarily the write ups are to encourage, uplift, cheer, educate and entertain people. Maybe I’ve posted something contrary to the above stated but it’s just like one. Over time I’ve just tried to encourage people and not post anything sad or heavy but for some weeks I’ve felt this guilt and heaviness that I even not writing about it has made worse.

If you know me, you will know I’m a very positive and happy person, all good vibes and energy. It doesn’t mean I don’t feel sad or feel some emotions contrary to happiness but I just deal with it inside. Don’t worry I’m not trying to deflect from the heaviness statement in the previous paragraph, I’m just trying to lay a ground work.

Children in Oyo state and some of the teachers were kidnapped and for over 30 days they haven’t been released. Now from the day that happened till now, I haven’t posted a single thing about it, all I’ve done is repost. Don’t get me wrong it’s not as if I don’t want to or I don’t care, it’s just… I don’t even know the words to say. Every day I think about these children, are they feeding them? Are they at least drinking water? I should not even expect too much because even the tender mercies of the wicked are cruel. I don’t understand how a nation would be so complacent about a problem like this or any problem at all. I’m not only thinking about just this unfortunate event but also every other that has plagued this nation. When I’m praying for Nigeria, some times I don’t know what to say, the problems are too deep and too much to even know where to start. Every time someone posts about the children that were kidnapped, I feel a sense of guilt and carrying this guilt is just heavy. Even as I’m typing this, my heart is beating fast.

There is so much happening in Nigeria right now that I don’t even know if there are good things happening. I go on IG and all of a sudden I want to leave cause I can’t scroll past two posts without seeing something negative, if it’s not something about this nation, it’s something that has the ability to rage bait you.

I might not know many things but I know this one thing, I’m not wasting time calling on God. I know some might say it’s foolishness but that’s ok. If praying to God about my nation Nigeria is foolish then I choose to be foolish.

I know writing about this now might be late but this is too much in my mind not to write. I’m not writing this because I want to be free of my guilt but because I genuinely want to. Till next time my people. Byeeeee.