If I Could Chase You

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How’s New York? Isn’t it something you want for so long? running away from everyone, dissappear, live with the one that doesn’t know anything about you.

If i could just chase you there, i really want to. dream about busy cities, just two of us. You know sometimes I hate loud, but hey-fast is also part of me, so I guess I’ll love to be there.

You’re not alone in having an urge to tell things, because sometimes I do really think to just press the call button, block and unblock your contact, but I finally stop stalking about you until I find your writing.

Actually when I heard you about going overseas, there’s a disappointment in my heart, I realized life can take you far from where we once stood, far from the places we once belonged to.

Despite all of that, I’m still happy, you finally have the courage to pursue something you want. I bet there’s a lot of arguments you’re facing, I’m really proud of you.

I’ve always known ur dreams to be bigger and bigger, then chase it, even when I still stood here waiting, until I found the right time to come to you.

Columbia, I hope it holds you the way I’ve ever held you, I hope it can be as comforting as Bandung where I stay, where we once became the happiest version of us.

I want to see you succeed in life, really, even the nights I told everyone I’m over you, I moved on, silently, I still pray for you too. I pray for your dreams, I pray everything is easier for you, I pray your family can be more and more gentle for you when my hug can’t.

I feel selfish if I want you to stay by my side, cause at the end your dream will still be your priority. And if i am allowed to make a wish (late birthday wish you’ve never celebrated), i want to meet you at least once, for the last time, just two of us, hug you for the last time before you fly far away from me.

I feel relieved right know, knowing your feeling is still the same as I am. Go on, Abang. Go far, that’s okay, chasing ur dreams, pack your bag, bring everything you want or even none, everything will be fine for you, I hope me too.

I’ll be here, stay, waiting for you. Or i’ll tried to chase there, maybe in years after i finished what i’ve held right now? or maybe you’ll chase after me, going back for a while and bringing me there with you?

It’s okay to still have me i your thoughts, it’s okay to see me, i’ll do the same for you.

Maybe Bandung will be colder when you leave, but I also chase what I can chase right now, my dreams, even it’s not as good as you, but I try my best, step by step.

I love you more, and always.