Feeling oddly alive

The combination of music, coffee, sex Slightly nauseous

nerves

vomit on his sweater already

like before a big game lol

they never were that big

in hindsight

im in the stars now

finally not caring about everyone i used to care about

thats a win, right?

at the end of the day

we die alone

and im staying true to me

devoted to my family

never been a bad friend

just had to cut some people out

because it didn’t work

loved them too much

to stay friends.

turn the page.

im in the next chapter

the one that so mystified me

how do you leave the angst behind?

when you live so hard, whats left?

how do you deescalate?

well, you start a family

shift your focus to taking care of others

instead of probing life so deeply

you grow roots

instead of floating with the wind

and its a relief.

you can only float for so many years

before your heart starts to hurt

and your mind turns on you.