The Anchor and the Void: Why I Am Still Here
When survival isn’t just about living, but about finding yourself again.
THE 8MM BATTLE
The Anchor and the Void: Why I Am Still Here
When survival isn’t just about living, but about finding yourself again.
ilustration made by AI and tina
The needle penetrates my stomach, forcing my body into a menopause it rejects.
I feel erased, hollow, and cold.
The blade took my breast, and the chemicals scorched my ovaries into silence.
The trauma echoes my oldest wound: the baby I lost eight years ago — the motherhood I was denied.
My partner’s grandson is here, not even a year old.
In the chaos of that surgery, he was my fragile anchor, a tiny life blooming while mine felt like it was ending.
I look in the mirror and tremble. Who am I?
I have no breast, no ovaries, and I am not a mother. I never will be.
The grief of these losses is overwhelming, a crushing weight that defines my shattered reality.
Yet, I am standing here, breathing through the pain. I am not a vessel for loss. I am tina!
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