Feeling my life empty

Hi!, i am bit nervous to write and post my thought, this is my first, i am writing something ever before, if someone reading my content, thank you, okay, how do you define ‘life’ in your way, for me continuos learning, maintaining my lifestyle and sometime changes and adjustment according to season to season and circumstances, right? i know this is basic opinion and it’s goes for surviving ourselves. I am blessed myself i have someone to fulfill my needs but for my future surviving i need to work and earn my bread untill my death, i am confused about my career, i done so many short courses, if i have to apply for vacancy i need to practise, prepare and update myself, but i don’t know why, my hope or trust are not supporting because cracking interview, showing my skill demo to the company before they decide to get hire, if i could’nt crack then i feel down on this situation, then after lot of struggle, my feeling would not support me, then choose other path, then same repeat, the matter of fact is that for upgrading to work and earn we need someone supportive person to guide and give detail and sometime motivates me, anyone who really knows on that field and understand me if i am fit or not on that.