pieces of an eldest daughter

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It didn’t mean you didn’t have food or shelter. They could provide for you, but you were severely psychologically and emotionally malnourished. You raised yourself, reminding yourself you were worth something, and you were smart, and one day you would figure out why you were so sad.

And while you had all of your physical needs met, you grew up wondering why your parents had you, and made mental notes about how you’ll do things differently when you have children.

You probably figured a lot of things out for yourself. You've endured heartbreak and sadness by yourself. You've learned to celebrate your own success without needing someone else's validation.

I respected my dad and sadly felt I loved him much more. I felt I related to him more and had no problem telling him every detail of my life. We would have heart to hearts and anytime I needed advice or to rant, I turned to him. He knew my social circle, he was able to pick out which friend of mine was dating my other friend and follow my stories of which one of my friends we had all gotten in a fight with, etc.; my mom just couldn't keep up.

to the eldest daughter (the one who acts as the parent to their own parents and their younger siblings)