2024.04.05

Dear Bangtan, Wisterias have bloomed seemingly overnight. Or perhaps, they were in the process of blooming for the past 2 weeks & I just didn’t notice. I had forgotten how much I love them. Their waterfall of purple & violet so beautiful as they cover every street corner. Dear Bangtan, sometimes I spend the whole day writing these letters to you in my head. I imagine long paragraphs, explaining my daily life to you but by the end of the day, I never actually write any of it to you. Mostly because I forget them by the time I sit down to write these letters, but sometimes it seems I’m only using you as an excuse to narrate my life to myself and ponder about everything. In ten weeks, it will be Jinaissance (what Armys have come to call Jin’s return to us) and I’ve been thinking if I should continue writing these letters after his return. I feel so secure in the thought that none of you read these letters now and though it’s highly doubtful that Jin would read these or even see them, the probability of him coming across them is higher and I’m too shy for you to actually read these! I’m feeling better. Life is really like swaying in a sea without a life jacket. Sometimes the tides are calm & you almost feel safe & soothed. Other times, stormy winds toss you around. I hope you’re all well. Take care! Army are here. Don’t worry! Borahae 💜