I know your life is good right now, but I hope it’s even better when I’m in it.

I don’t crave attention, but I love it when someone just needs me.

Charlie (The Perks Of Being a Wallflower)

My heart is a magnet,

It pulls me where I’m needed.

I lived half of my life drowned in poetry and sorrows, in which I concluded It’ll always be like this — someone who’s very unlucky and unfortunate. How can I not be? My mother died unexpectedly, and I’m probably the worst person in my family.

I felt so lost in everywhere that I went in to — family, friends, even I myself too. I’ve been so mad at God, in every unfortunate events that had happened to me.

“God, I hate you.”

The words that I prayed when my heart was aching from all of the things that happened.

I suppose I wasn’t meant to be loved, I suppose I’ll always be like this.

In the middle of this chaos.. I heard these words:

“It’s okay that you’re angry at him, as long as you still believe in him.”

That sentence lit a fire inside me.

I know experiencing those things meant for something greater. I’m not mental, I should’ve be but instead I used it for my own good and for others too.

From the words of my poetry and from my experience.

I eventually found myself in a state in where paradise exists — the sorrowed hearts of the people that I speak with, the sorrow of their hearts who were once lost and who needs help.

“Stronger people helps those weaker, those who was once weak that got stronger will help the weaker.”

It’s in the law of nature!

You just need to stand out and be strong.

You’d never know that the pleasure you’re finding is actually from the other people who needs your help.

Be different in the world that makes you feel different, just be you.. you’re different from others. It’s never wrong to stand out, be capable of who you are.