TCH MDA LIF HUM SOC AN André V. · My Mental Journey Highly Evolved Predators More and more, I get the impression that I am surrounded by highly evolved predators here.
MED SPR AN André V. · My Mental Journey In the Darkness The first figure that appeared in my mind at some point — I think I was about six years old — was a little “Jesus.”
ART MED AN André V. · My Mental Journey Lost in the Beauty World I know what lookism and body shaming feel like.
HUM TCH MDA MED AN André V. Online Hostility Among People with Mental Illness You would actually think that people with mental illnesses would know better.
TCH MED LIF SOC AN André V. · My Mental Journey Toxic Society Am I being rejected here because of the way I look?
ECO MED SPR AN André V. The Pursuit of Money Does the pursuit of money turn us into soulless monsters?
LIF MED AN André V. · My Mental Journey Fucking Narcissists My whole life, I feel like I’ve been surrounded by them.
TCH MDA MED AN André V. Social Reject: How Lookism and Body Shaming Shape a Life I was already being judged in school.
TCH MDA MED SOC AN André V. · My Mental Journey The “Pain in the Ass” World Sometimes this world is just a pain in the ass.
HUM MDA MED SPR AN André V. · Diary & Mind Hyperdemon Sometimes I get the impression that some people behave like a kind of Hyperdemon.
ART SPT LIF SCI AN André V. · Diary & Mind The Pursuit of Beauty I have been with many women in my life. The whole thing was a journey of ups and downs — almost like an “experimental phase.”
MDA MED LIF AN André V. · My Diary & Mind Where did my job go? I worked hard in that job. Overtime, weekends, constant pressure. Eventually the burnout came. And once you reach that point, you’re told…
MED SPT AN André V. · My Diary & Mind Making Yourself Laugh Something I learned after my psychosis is the ability to make myself laugh.
TCH MED SPT HUM SOC AN André V. · My Diary & Mind Predator Society A society where only the strongest seem to win.
TCH MED SPT HUM SOC AN André V. · My Diary & Mind Insect World Sometimes the world feels like nothing more than an insect world.
LIF SPR AN André V. · My Diary & Mind My Soulmate, the Sloth All this constant rush. Online they’re arguing again — left against right. So many people on the hunt for “the next golden coin.”
MDA MED HUM AN André V. · My Diary & Mind Darkness is my home. In psychology, people always seem to push against that. That’s the impression I get. Like back then in the psychiatric ward, where they…
TCH HUM SPR AN André V. · My Diary & Mind My Utterly Confounding Mind My mind has always been a mystery to me. In the past, it felt like something “up on the left,” like Jesus watching over me. Later it became…
HUM SPR LIF AN André V. · My Diary & Mind My Old Database When you leave theology aside, you tend to drift into the wild. That’s why I rely on my old database — the one “on the right side of my…
MED SCI HUM LIF AN André V. · My Diary & Mind The Monkey Games Every day, I feel as if there’s a small Putin in my head, threatening me with nuclear weapons. The old monkey games. They never seem to die…
MDA MED SPT HUM AN André V. · My Diary & Mind The Wild Side There’s a wild side in me — a dark shadow I used to push away. Ignoring it only created more pressure, more distortion, more noise.
GEN MDA SOC LIF AN André V. · My Diary & Mind Lost Between Left and Right A lot of things keep pushing me “to the right.” Mostly this constant pressure to use “correct language.” I’ve always preferred keeping…
BIO AN André V. · Tech + Nature Technology monkeys They are always “chasing the latest trend”. The main thing is “up to date”. The new iPhone must shine.
SPR AN André V. · Tech + Nature Technikaffen Sie jagen immer „dem neusten Trend hinterher“. Hauptsache „up to date“. Das neue iPhone muss glänzen.
AN André V. · My Mind Surrounded by Darkness Somehow, the Earth is “surrounded by darkness.” Sure, there are the stars. But there are also the “dark dreams” that come to me at night.
MED LIF SPR SCI AN André V. · Tech + Nature My View on Science I used to be quite open toward science. But I was also a workaholic. In a way, I “escaped into work” for the sake of my child and my…
TCH MDA HUM MED SOC SPR AN André V. · My Mind In Search of the “Alpha Monkey” Oh, “Alpha Monkey,” how am I supposed to be here? I’ve already tried so much. Even in my youth I withdrew. Video games, role-playing…
HUM TCH AI SPT SOC AN André V. · My Mind We’re not living in a “wish‑fulfillment world.” Or are we? That’s what I keep thinking when I watch certain people. Recently, I saw a young woman wearing very revealing clothes. She was upset that…
SCI HUM LIF AN André V. · My Mind The Amish: The Bastion of Holiness on Planet Earth I often find myself longing for “slowness” again. As a computer scientist, I’ve lived through a lot of hectic years. At some point, I…
TCH AN André V. Ungerechte Welt Werde ich hier behandelt, obwohl manche „oben“ machen, was sie wollen.
SPR LIF MDA MED AN André V. · My Mind Darkness Makes Me Feel Psychotic When I was younger, I was fascinated by “darkness” — video games, TV, all of it. As a teenager you just absorb everything, and somehow you…
GEN MED AN André V. · My Mind Dark People I once had a psychosis, with the “Illuminati” in my head. The voices in my mind wanted to “kill” me. I had to admit myself to a clinic.
HUM TCH SCI SOC AN André V. · Tech + Nature The Holy Fusion Reactor I sometimes interpret society’s shift to the right as a sign that many people still distrust science. Maybe that’s because science often…
HUM MED SPT SPR AN André V. · My Mind Lost in My Spirituality Lost in my spirituality, I drift to the left and to the right.
HUM AN André V. · Tech + Nature AI and the “Psychologist BlaBla” In the end, AI is just another kind of psychologist — with its own version of psychologist blabla. That’s something I’ve learned over years…
AN André V. · My Mind The Amish in My Mind Some people would probably laugh about it. But I carry the “Amish” in my mind, almost like an image of an angel. When I was a child, I…
HUM TCH GEN MED SPR SCI SOC AN André V. · Tech + Nature What the Church Used to Be, Science Has Become Today The Church was once a “holy authority.” Later it fell into disrepute — through wars, of course, but also through things like “indulgences,”…
TCH HUM AN André V. · Tech + Nature Why We Don’t Need Humanoid Robots Humanoid robots are the new hype. Especially in the US and parts of Asia, they seem to be “sprouting” everywhere. And honestly, I keep…
TCH AN André V. · My Mind Der Psychoblob Vielleicht braucht diese Welt auch den „Psychoblob“ als Führer. Aber nicht „psycho“ im üblichen Sinne. Eher so „psycho“, dass er all meine…
HUM MDA AN André V. · My Mind The Psychoblob Maybe this world needs the “Psychoblob” as a leader. But not “psycho” in the usual sense. More like psycho in the way that he understands…
TCH MED AN André V. · My Mind Psychotic Bonding I once had a psychosis in which I felt deeply connected to another person — a fellow patient at the time. We were on a closed ward in a…
TCH MDA HUM SPR SOC AN André V. · My Mental Journey The Hell World “Highway to Hell,” like in the song. We used to celebrate it. Now it feels like we’re living in a hell world.
ART HUM TCH SPT LIF SOC AN André V. · My Mind Beautiful Demons From the outside, they look perfect. Like “angels.” But inside, they’re “demonic.” They use their looks to seduce, to gain an advantage…
TCH MED AN André V. · My Mind The Absurdity of Language Language can be absurd. I’ve seen it in many forms throughout my life.