clothing i wish i could wear vs. clothes that look good on me

I WISH I COULD WEAR

1. THIS STYLE TOP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whats it called??? i love it, its so cutesie and girly but ive tried everything, even the ones that are made for my body type. My boobs just laugh at me. its wayyyyy to much cleavage. and, the flowing thing just looks wrong on my wide build

2. Triangle bikinis!!!! theyre just so aesthetic and the tanlines are so cutsie and stuff but again, its like it has no support for my boobs, and it just shows wayyyyy too much. and, yes i have tried the ones made for body types similar to mine. also, the bottoms, muffin top. its just not cute

3. this combo! the tight tank top and the baggy sweatpants! soooooo flattering and cute!!!!! but, i cant wear skintight stuff bc i got a tum tum.

4. low rise jeans. MUFFIN TOP!!!!!!!!!

5. jeans. just any jeans. they fit perfectly, then whenever i wanna wear them, im being suffocated. its sooooo painful! and it sucks extra bc they make my butt look soooo good!

CLOTHES I LOVE

1. BOX CUT TEES!!!!!!!!!!! they are my absolute favorite!! they just hit me in the right spot!!

2. left on friday big boobs collection!!!!!!! i love my left on friday bikinis!!!!! yes, they are expensive, but they are SOOOOOO worth it! they give me enough support to not have to worry abt flashing the whole world, and the high waisted tops dont pinch or dig into my tummy, but they manage to minimize my tum tum and hit in a way that is just super flattering and lowkey gives hourglass! i garentee you, my self confidence is so much better now that ive found swimwhere i actually feel good in! and, they still make my boobs look good and show off a little booty so i can feel cutsie.

3. the rag and bone sweatpant jeans!!!!!!!!! i get to feel cutsie and where jeans. but i dont have to torture myself. litterally my best friends!!

litterally anything that is highwaisted but stretchy is so flattering and doesnt dig into your insides. and, pair it with shorter baggy tops just looks good! also, leggings, the og lulu ones are really good! also, MEN’S CLOTHING! its not cut skinny bc men typically have a wider build and so therefore, when trying to go oversized, they dont get caught on your curves. also, bigger pockets! no, i feel cutest when my dad gives me his old shirts. also, any huge sweaters that you can just like hang off your body, like off the shoulder, baggy, always moving, its just so effortless and cute and also comfy. my fake jeans and a shruggy sweater are my go-tos when i want to be comfy and cute. also, huge sweaters are just really sozy and cute with anything. lately, with school and shit, ive just not felt like i had the energy to put in effort (im also on my period, that might be it), so ive been just letting my hair air dry, no products, put it in a ponytail, no makeup, hoodie or sweater and sweatpants or leggings. then my chunky socks. yes, it is probably too hot for sweats but schools just always blast the ac and they never let you outside anyway, so its perfectly fine to wear sweats, think.

Ive found so many workarounds for my problems that i still feel cute in, even if i do feel fat and ugly sometimes and feel sad bc i cant always wear what i want.

Illistrating the way i feel

the point of this account is to share my experience as clearly as possible so if people struggling with similar stuff can see my writing and feel less alone. i tend to do this thru writing, images, and songs. so, here :)

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