ANXIETY…

1 Peter 5:17

I’m scared of messing things up

I’m scared of being alone

I’m scared of feeling lonely

Scared of disappointing the ones around me

Scared of hearing what they don’t say about me

Scared of knowing that not everyone likes me

Scared of not figuring things out that involve me

Scared of actin’ brand new when I cling to the old me

Scared of not doing my best whenever I’m opportune…

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I take a look at the mirror,

I’ve seen two phases, two different faces

I know that you know,

You’ve been calling,

And I’ve been ducking,

You’ve been trying to get me to move on

Asked me “how’s it going?”

Well, let me tell you,

In 2019, I had a long run, some games with beautiful nostalgia on the side

Double twenty, I dived into many new things

New troubles, and ambitions; I put some to the side

In 2021, things got a bit serious when L-O-V-E came around this side

Had one or two friends, now they distant, few can’t speak from my own side

Fast forward to 2023, I wish I could live life back when it was lively

I really did lose my touch of being simple and doing things freely

Dramas and unnecessary excuses came through for 2024

I remembered that evening with the long calls and text at 20:24

2025 gave off good times too; maybe I just didn’t dive more ‘cause I deeply focused on the past

Lost in H.E.R. damages; either you learn me, or I’m a lesson.

I seemed to be the latter, and so far,

Half of this year’s been a mix of those years too, and I can’t help but…

I can’t help but…

You then told me,

“Son, listen to Me

What’s it going to be, this time?

Are you letting go of these burdens on your own, or will you give it all to me?

Are you going to stay and sink in these troubled waters, or will you let me pull you up?

Are you planning more A, B, C’s, or will you let me show you what I see?

Will it be easier and better to take it in again?

Do you think you’d be able to numb the pain?

You know I care about you

And you’re never alone,

I’m always with you

Let me take over what you can’t run over

You know I care about you.”

And what do I say?

Lord, I give it to you.